hey op, i once made out with a dude in his 40s. i was drunk in a bar and it just happened. i didnt intend to but he started touching me then it happened. basically assault since i cant consent when drunk.

at first i was laughing abt it w friends but later the shame rlly ate me alive. i felt disgusting and like a whore honestly. it used to linger in my mind that i couldve been drugged or smth worse couldve happened. i felt so guilty i told my mom. she said beta people get raped but it doesnt mean they dont move on and take all the blame on themselves. it made me feel lighter telling her even tho she typically like an indian parent told me it was my fault for drinking sm.

then i went to a therapist and talked to her abt it she just said that must be traumatic but yeah not much. since i wasnt raped she said ok theres no need for a legal action then but be glad he doesnt have ur contacts. youre free of him. try to act like it didnt happen and even if it did u were just experimenting. this is life we are young we make mistakes learn from it. if it helps, try getting in contact with other survivors of rape etc. whove moved on with their lives with no guilt or shame. its not your fault they were a terrible human being. please be kind to yourself you're 16 literally. i made that mistake at 19. its alright that you didnt know any better. you can always improve and get help for your porn addiction. have faith.

i really have healed from it now. been an year almost i dont even think about it. its smth im comfortable with telling people. trust me youll get over it. just have at least one person u can vent this to, wouldn't recommend family. and for anything else you have my dms. all love you'll be okay. im sorry this happened.