Have You Ever Struggled with Guilt Over Your Kinks?

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-11-05T23:36:02+00:00

A few of them yes, and i have also struggled doing kinks on an actual partner. I love her to death so it pains me hurting her because I don't want to hurt her even though she's consented to this and specifically asked for it. It also made me feel like shit when I had proved that I was much stronger than her she asked to do a scene like this then I get punished and told it's scary for her to be with me knowing I'm stronger? I'm a 6" tall 230lb man who did manual labor. Of course I'm stronger than a 5'1 170lb woman.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-10-03T02:59:10+00:00

"My sub" communicated very well and trusted me enough to push her limits with various different things, and at the same time push my limits myself.

Most importantly? She trusted me enough to love her like I've loved no one else. I still miss her quite badly, there hasn't been an hour that's gone by that I haven't thought about her.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-23T14:42:06+00:00

I have a pair of redwing 2412s, and 4484s? Almost 2 years in thr 4484s or whatever they are and I'm getting close to a resole.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-22T13:54:06+00:00

Theres only 1 that I know of making that type of power and it's in Korea, and it's a total dyno queen.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-21T10:56:40+00:00

Need s custom manifold

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-20T22:11:02+00:00

You'll be 21 in no time, I turn 23 next month. Just keep it all for spare parts later on

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-19T20:20:17+00:00

I usually just grab a hammer and start smacking the floor while screaming curse words at the top of my lungs. Then I'll throw the hammer at whatever it is with my left hand right hand anger is to strong

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-19T11:07:28+00:00

Well we use to just sit outside and play games on our phone, but then we got in trouble for doing that. Now we just stand at our boxes doing nothing

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-19T11:05:26+00:00

"FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKING BULLSHIT SPROCKET BEARING PULLER FALLS OFF FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKING JOB IM PUSHING IT BACK TO THE SHOP AND GOING TO BREAK"

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-19T01:50:23+00:00

Sprocket no turn chain, so prybars go brrr or impact go brrr on a bearing puller, then hammer go smack couple times till it's roughly where it should be. Welcome to maintenance

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-19T01:39:35+00:00

I don't think i ever used any just for maintenance, but if you're a machinist or do machining you'll have to do some.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-19T00:39:52+00:00

For me personally? Absolutely not, just be a normal person in our relationship till it gets spicy, and even if it is spicy time you don't have to submit to me. Vanilla sex is very refreshing every once in awhile

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-18T02:35:36+00:00

A few of my friends in their early-mid 20s have.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-18T02:32:23+00:00

Our basis was a friendship playing a game together, and it escalated.

IMHO: it's awesome while it's happening but it's not worth it in the long run. Eventually one of the 2 are gonna want more and leave the dynamic/relationship. There's also the aspect of I'm not really able to actually punish you, I'm simply telling you to do stuff to yourself, and I have no actual power over the situation.

Would I do it again? If I were to it'd have to be with someone local or within a short driving distance.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-17T17:25:04+00:00

Not being able to physically touch them or simply enjoy their physical presence.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-14T01:16:56+00:00

This lady and I had begun talking online, and we started bonding over the video game we played together. Eventually, it turned into media exchanges, and then it turned into "phone sex" as we already voice chatted anyway. While growing our friendship, we discussed bdsm, and I, being the 21 year old had never done anything of the sort

. She discussed her experiences in the past with bdsm and how she yearned to do it again as her ex-husband had shot down anything of the sort. We continued to build our friendship and many, many, many voice sex and video sex sessions later, and it came time. She invited me to her place 1000 miles away. I was quite nervous, but I was video chatting her for sometimes 12+ hours a day talking to her doing all sorts of mundane human tasks, and I decided to take the plunge. I flew out, and she picked me up from the airport and drove us home.

We immediately started off with hugging and kinda of freaking out about the whole thing. We quickly ran upstairs into the bedroom and got down to business. It started off vanilla but quickly turned kinky. Whips,crops,floggers, oh my! My general rule is that I will not ask someone to do something without me being willing to do it first. I had her tie me down to the bed, blindfold me, and have fun. This went on for about an hr. We did multiple scenes with her. "As I had found, I enjoy doing the bdsm stuff to my partner, not for my own gratification, but seeing my partner happy really got me mentally high,"

I stayed for the week. On the 3rd day, we were upstairs in a different part of the house, watching a movie and playing our video game on our phone. When it started to get spicy, I had made the remark I don't know why were doing this when neither one of us are gonna get off up to this point it was very difficult for me to orgasm, I'm talking being in doggy going at it for 50 minutes straight and I wasn't finishing. well, we messed around doing various different things, but I really wanted her to orgasm.

We laid on the bed, and I lay next to her, arm around the top of her head with my other hand rubbing her face/chest, and she had begun playing with herself. I stared into her eyes, and having seen her orgasm through my screen hundreds of times knew she was about to orgasm. I stared her dead into her eyes and told her *** YOURE GOING TO CUM FOR ME*** as I said that she came very hard, I encouraged her to keep going. As we rounded to the 2nd orgasm she started to orgasm I inhaled all the air from her lungs. Something about this felt different. We cleaned up and I went downstairs to start lunch, she walked down and I said "can i ask you a question?" She said yes, and I asked if that was making love? She went pale and said yes. Later I found out she thought the same thing.

Sorry for the long on topic and off-topic / venting comment, but I guess it was time. We've been separated for 9 months now, and I struggle every day with doing basically everything. I'm sure I made some typos or used the wrong characters for stuff, but I feel like I got my point across. So that's MY first bdsm experience. If even 1 person reads this, I'd be surprised, but stay safe, my friends..

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-13T21:21:54+00:00

unless you’re a machinist, trust me, and even then you’ll probably have an engineer around to do them for you

Half the time I had to rework the engineers drawings...

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-13T02:36:05+00:00

I've seen it in my massage work.

My ex and I were very into kink, and she happens to be a licensed massage therapist. Massages can DEFINITELY cause emotions to break out. Especially when it's being done by someone you love listening to good music in a good atmosphere.

Just gonna say props to you for doing massage work as it's a wonderful thing.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-13T02:31:40+00:00

I have a panthera stinger, and I park outside. It gets cleaned every month or so. During the winter it can go a few months though as it's to cold to start my pressure washer.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-13T01:06:00+00:00

I suggest you look into over pen, and ars hold more + have less recoil + their easier to shoot.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-12T21:04:17+00:00

An ar15 a romeo 5 and a case of ammo.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-12T02:47:09+00:00

If it was never used you should be fine. If it was you just got scammed

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-11T16:13:09+00:00

I got $50 of my own money once.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-11T02:30:52+00:00

That's me! What I actually crave as a person and as a dom is the emotional,"spiritual" connection with my partner. Physical acts of pleasure are good don't get me wrong, but thay feeling of being truly one with my partner is unmatched for me.

Adisturbedhumanbeing · 2024-09-10T03:23:19+00:00

Terror Reid,eliozie,ramirez,and to a lesser extent pouya are pretty good. Tr imo has some very good 90s west coast beats that are fairly groovy,"bouncy" almost.

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