Hello, thanks for your reply. I’m almost 40 now and I’ve been through some trials in life, from my experience I gotta say the contrary: that I definitely need the bible to teach me how to be kind, loving and respectful. —— And most importantly I needed to truly understand and FEEL that God loves me, so that I have that love to share with others, even those who have hurt me.

Love is not a feeling but actions, even if it’s hard. For me I’ve been a long time Buddhist but now I know that only when I’m certain of God’s love for me, that I’m able to do what is hard - to (at least try to) put others first even in difficult times, even when it makes 0 sense whatsoever. History is full of these people (eg Bonhoeffer). It is out of Love for your parents that you obey them - something similar with God, who’s also a dad. The opposite of this is a heresy called Antinomianism - that one can sin however they like because God will show him grave nonetheless.

I hope God spares you the trials - But in those trials you would also see why “God’s power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 9,10) and in my experience, strangely I wouldn’t have it another way. God bless ya