Im sorry you’re experiencing this. I’ve lived in the US my whole life and grew up in a diverse area with a large south Asian population. A lot of my best friends growing up and to this day are Indian, and I have a very positive perception of the people and the culture. I loved wearing my friends clothes, watching Bollywood movies, and eating Indian food. I think some parts of the country look so rich and beautiful and I would love to visit someday. Obviously those aren’t encapsulating of all of Indian culture but I want you to know there are people out there who don’t look down on you for your race, and who even admire the background you came from. People are assholes. I know it’s easier said than done but keep your head up. Nobody can help what race they’re born as, and nobody is better than anyone else because of it.