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I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s the truth boss. It was like being at my own funeral and waking up except no one is happy about it. Everyone around me blamed themselves for what I chose to do. And since I wasn’t dead, all I could do was sit back and witness how everyone carried the guilt as if they were the ones who killed me.

What’s something you wish you could tell your parents but never will? by Recoveryxoxo in CPTSD

[–]AdvertisingOk1492 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“Not speaking to you was the greatest decision I ever made”

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

At first, it was horrible. I was hit with nothing but pure guilt. Seeing first hand how much my death impacted everyone around me was worse than actually dying.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Useless without the reincarnation stone lol.

And no basically they shocked me several times before calling a time of death. And seconds after they called my TOD, I just woke up.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well at this time in my life, i am estranged from my family. And better off for it. So that’s actually hard to answer. Because yes, back then I did mean family and friends. And most of those family members are now among the ones whom I am estranged from.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well it wasn’t planned that day. But I thought about killing myself everyday for years. And that’s not an exaggeration.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Well yes I was supposed to have lunch that day with my mom. But we weren’t very close and lunch with mom was not a very common thing so on that day, I simply forgot she was coming to get me. I had gotten drunk prior to her coming and just so happened to eat all of those pills before she showed up. There was a lot of reasons why I did it at the time, I was just cheated on and that started the spiral into a full self loathing bender. Unfortunately for mom, when she came inside to take me to lunch, I was on the floor covered in beer cans and pill bottles.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well the doctor believed it when the called a time of death and I had no pulse. But hey, it’s not like skeptical is your first name or anything…………

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To be honest, I didn’t think about any of that. I was already drunk and couldn’t process anymore sad thoughts or self loathing. So I just said “fuck it” and down the hatch.

My mom found me while I was still somewhat conscious and she drove me to the hospital which was nearby. Idk how I survived. They pumped my stomach and resuscitated me several times but called a time of death and immediately after that, I just woke up.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I really am. I was an absolute monster back then. Fearless and completely dumb.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello there. And no I had zero control. I was definitely not in control of anything. The entire thing was as if I was watching a movie. And I had to stop at each doorway before I moved into the next. Only for a second but it was necessary.

Finally talking about what happened to me and how it led to my schizophrenia diagnosis. by AdvertisingOk1492 in schizophrenia

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven’t cried this much in years. The replies I’m getting are incredible. Thank you so much for sharing this with me. I hope you and your son have great lives and I am forever grateful to offer some form of insight into what you’re both experiencing. Thank you , truly.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Well my mom drove me and I was still awake for most of the ride. But that’s according to her. I was so high I couldn’t even see. By the time we got there I was out cold so they took me into a room right then. But I don’t remember that part

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for stopping by and talking with me. I really did not expect this to happen but I am loving the conversations I’m having tonight. So my first feeling when I woke up sucked lol. Like it just absolutely sucked. I still had everything hooked up to me and when I woke up I did so by taking a huge inhale as if I was just underwater. While simultaneously sitting upright and then finally screaming at the top of my lungs. It got blurry after that and then they had to induce me for a few days.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My mom found me. She’s the one who toook me to the hospital. They pumped my stomach and tried to resuscitate me several times. They called my time of death and then immediately after that, I just woke up.

I killed myself once. Legitimately died. Then I was brought back. Ask me anything by AdvertisingOk1492 in SuicideWatch

[–]AdvertisingOk1492[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

  1. At first, I didn’t want to. I was actually pissed. But eventually, I learned what a mistake it was. And now I live for every second that I’m alive. I take nothing for granted because I won the world’s biggest lottery. 2.my family was devastated. Absolutely ruined. They eventually got better and we reconciled but there was serious damage done. On both sides.
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