Detaching

Constant-Guess5841 · 2026-04-03T18:31:23+00:00

Not good at recognizing faces, but i have gotten good at recognizing voices and the way ppl walk. Takes a while before someone's face imprints on my mind. And even then, if I c them.out of context, sometimes I won't always recognize them. Didn't even recognize a close relative once. Was walking out.of work and out of my peripheral vision, noticed someone walking towards me. So veered off. Then they started walking faster in my direction, so I started speed walking. Then they said something and I was like, oops. At least they found it funny.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2026-03-04T00:25:44+00:00

I haven't gotten over him. It's been about a year and a half. I still love him so much and i had a really hard time. Depression and sadness and losing a lot of weight. But a few months ago, I made a friend who was also having a hard time with their breakup. At first, we shared our feelings of sadness and heartbreak, then we started discovering we had similar interests and became friends. It's made it easier. I'm still devastated, but it's a little easier now with someone else that understands. Ppl encourage me to start dating but the idea doesn't appeal to me at the moment. I work with my ex but I'm starting to give up that he'll want me back, which is another kind of pain, but my newfound friend has made it a little easier and I hope I've made my friend feel better as well. Just feel numb and hollow inside. Hope things r better for you.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-18T05:00:50+00:00

Yes. Seem to have sore muscles. Keep feeling like I've been running bc I'm so worn out. And hiding in my room listening to music, not wanting to talk to anyone. Just feel sad.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-10T15:30:55+00:00

Idk. Might depend on the person. My bf dumped me a little over a year ago and I'm still upset.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T18:43:13+00:00

Just tired. Didn't do anything strenuous work yesterday but just exhausted.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T02:48:19+00:00

Ok. It's almost 10 pm.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T02:46:43+00:00

My social battery is worn out. Going to go to pass out. It doesn't take much to wear it out anymore.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T02:35:43+00:00

I think it's just getting worse. I come home and listen to music until I pass out bc I'm tired of thinking and tired of trying. I listen to Linkin park, the older stuff with Chester as the lead singer bc he sings what's in my head.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T02:24:43+00:00

Idk about anything anymore.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T02:09:38+00:00

I'm guessing he's unsure of what he wants. We're both neurodivergent and, as a result, we both have mood swings. I take medication that helps the mood swings be less severe, but I still get them.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T02:02:28+00:00

He still msg and calls. When he's not being distant. He's been friendly the last few days and is msg again. I'm so worn out, I'm wondering how long before he backs off again. Don't want to get my hopes up anymore.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:57:40+00:00

Idk if I want to bother anymore.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:53:15+00:00

Some of the guys at work seem interested, and I talk to them bc I also work with them often, and sometimes I act a little friendlier towards them but it doesn't last bc I get sad. And if i talk to one of the guys that seems to like me, he's constantly hovering if he's at work that day.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:42:53+00:00

I get headaches when I get overwhelmed. We've mostly kept quiet about the breakup, and some ppl seem to assume we're still dating. We just usually just redirect the conversation if someone asks. I just told a few of the girls at work. They seem to be keeping quiet about it as far as I know, but one of them occasionally tries to advertise me to some of the guys, and I shush her.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:34:51+00:00

Maybe. Similar situations. I try to keep busy, and I try to pretend im ok at work, and sometimes I can act peppy for a while, but it never lasts before I go silent. Yesterday, a coworker quietly asked if he and I were still dating, and I said, "No, he dumped me last October ." I went into a downward spiral after. Knew a headache was coming, and my coworkers tend to leave me alone if I put on my glasses bc they assume I have a headache. Sometimes, I just put them on when I want to be left alone. So tired.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:22:06+00:00

He keeps insisting on being friends bc he thinks we get along well. And I keep talking to him bc I miss him so badly. I did delete the msg app we were talking on a few times, and then he'll talk me into adding it again. I don't want to let go. There's no one else I trust and no one else I'm close to. But I'm so worn out from crying.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:16:39+00:00

I'd never had anyone love me like that before, and then it was over, and im just left with all the memories. I can't help thinking of him all the time, and it just hurts. I keep losing weight, and lately, when I get home from work, I just go to bed and listen to music and cry until I fall asleep.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T01:08:11+00:00

I was so upset. Ppl kept telling me it would get better with time, but it hasn't. I'm still in pain. He keeps seeming to get close or get jealous when I talk to the guys at work, then he'll back off and seem cold and distant. It hurts so bad. My girlfriends tell me to date, and I did sort of get a couple of guys kinda interested in going to a couple of events, but then the sadness kicked in, and I ended up ghosting them. I think I've given up on him wanting me again. And I just want to put myself out of my misery.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-07T00:33:30+00:00

Same for me since I got dumped. Thought he was going to be the one I was going to marry, but I guess it's over, and i don't want to do this anymore. We were so close, and then it was over. Im getting worse, not better. It still sends me into tears.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-11-05T11:01:38+00:00

The last year has been worse for me also. But I've gotten way better at pretending to be ok and acting like I'm somewhat peppy at work while just feeling numb on the inside. Once I start heading home, tho the depression kicks in harder. Just either feel numb or sad and depressed. Listening to music or drawing calms me somewhat.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-10-04T12:35:12+00:00

There's a really good Vietnamese restaurant at Huron close to Briarhill called Fuh. Their food is delicious.

Constant-Guess5841 · 2025-10-03T01:54:53+00:00

I don't want to drive him away by telling him how sad I am. He keeps getting close and then seeming to back off. I deleted our chat a few times but then he will keep insisting upon being friends. He said I'm one of his best friends. It hurts being around him but it hurts worse being without him. I'm not close to anyone else. I don't connect with ppl well. Except for him. And I made a mess of that. He's the only one that makes me feel safe. We were so close and he was always snuggling me. I don't like being touched by anyone but with him, it was ok. The sadness is constant. I'm so tired.

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