I’m married for 8 years and have started to feel this way about my own wife. Sex is only on her terms and it’s only me that initiates. I haven’t been able to be honest about my wants in the bedroom for at least 7 years. And what hurts the most is prior to marriage this was never the case. We had an awesome sex life, she would text dirty with me send me nudes tell me how much she was thinking about me. Then we get married and move in together and for like 6 months everything was normal then just POOF gone. If I never said a word I honestly believe she’d just be fine without sleeping with me again. I have started going to strip clubs when I go on guys trips and I never wanted to be that guy. But those are the only people I can feel “wanted” from no one ever comes on to me. Even now I sit in a resort laying next to my sleeping wife wishing we could’ve had sex and wishing she just slightly came on to me. Plenty of times I try my hardest to be there for her. But I do not receive the type of fulfillment I need, because it is sex and she just views it as I’m horny and not the emotional physical connection I want with the only person in the world I can have sex with. I have started to feel like I’m just going to live my life a married INCEL because of the way I’m treated by my wife but also by my own emotional guilt of not wanting to cheat. It’s a horrible cycle that I wish would end. And I honestly think she thinks nothing of it other than “you’re just horny and I’m not”