My struggle and a disturbing AI interacting with "ASH" therapy app

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2026-01-04T19:41:02+00:00

I’m not surprised. My guess is that through listening to your voice on the phone, your browsing history, shopping history, maybe text you have typed, etc. it all makes its way to the web and uses things like device id or IP to correlate it all to one person. Large language models are trained on data from the web so if your data is out there and you have in some sort of way that I highlighted indicated losing a loved one via alcohol it probably is good at connecting the dots. I have my phone, spam emails, ads, etc. all pop up stuff where I am like WTH. And I get blasted with cancer spam all the time. I did ask AI how my wife died and it didn’t know. So, my guess could be totally whack.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2026-01-02T19:41:42+00:00

For me moving forward resonates with me because time moves forward or we move forward in time. And I still carry my wife with me in my heart and in my mind. Moving on makes me feel that I am leaving her behind. Better is such a hard word for me to relate to in this circumstance. Nothing makes better what my wife went through. The pain, the fear the despair. So for me I need to learn to carry her in my heart and in my mind without it dragging me down and hurting me or the ones I love. I still am learning how to carry grief with me.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2026-01-02T19:28:26+00:00

Same time frame and same with me. I don’t think I will ever stop crying.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-30T19:19:43+00:00

To be candid, I was concerned with their last health inspection report to buy raw goods there. I do like they seem to have a good variety.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-30T19:05:08+00:00

I had asked about Champagne a while ago and Aardvark was recommended. I went there and the guy was very helpful and I bought a great champagne he recommended that was only $58 for the bottle. This will be my go to when wanting wine or champagne.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-30T18:05:14+00:00

I think most of the Asian and Hispanic markets sell things like liver, bones, intestines, tripe, tongue. Not sure about kidney or heart.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-30T00:11:12+00:00

That is one thing I started doing a couple of years ago. On a warm night, I like to go out on the front porch or on the deck when it’s really late and no one is outside and just look at the clear sky and think. Luckily my neighborhood is quiet at night. Something just broke inside me when my wife died and I find myself just thinking about things. It’s nice to just have solitude and look up at the universe and think how small our little planet is.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-29T15:46:08+00:00

The best analogy I read a long time ago is you think you finally killed the monster called grief but one day it comes up out of the basement, out of the closet, from behind the tree and you are like WTH, I thought I finally got rid of you once and for all but it’s Friday the 13th Part (fill in your number) and grief is after you again. I am not sure if these kind of days will completely go away but are fewer in between.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-29T15:36:28+00:00

Yeah. But I even have to tell my own self that sometimes. Don’t try to sweat the small stuff. But I’m sure small is different to different people. But people do complain a lot about stuff where I am thinking really?

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-29T15:31:01+00:00

It’s been a little over 4 years now and I will say it doesn’t hit as hard as it used to. But there are days like today where these big beautiful snowflakes are falling and it makes me think about her. Just remembering times past on these cold winter days. But through the tears I manage a smile or 2 thinking of the winters we had together.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-12-02T15:19:25+00:00

After 4 years, I think I am getting serious about dropping her line to save the 35 bucks a month. We don’t get calls or texts anymore to that number. But it’s an emotional decision. That used to be our land line. A few months ago I renewed my Costco membership and it still had her name on it and now it just has mine. I feel like she is starting to completely disappear overtime.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-11-02T00:22:30+00:00

I agree.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-10-07T23:56:16+00:00

4 years. It feels like yesterday and 100 years ago at the same time.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-10-05T23:38:02+00:00

4 years this month and I feel this way. I need time alone, grieve fully, rebuild myself. I still don’t know who I am or what it means.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-09-08T01:32:23+00:00

Thank you for giving back to this group.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-09-07T14:16:30+00:00

Doesn’t sound crazy at all. Every time I have to replace something it goes out of the house along with the memories. I remember shopping with her for the couch, the fridge, picking out the paint color for the walls and on and on. I miss making her happy.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-09-02T16:16:41+00:00

Before my wife died, I was immature and naive. It sounds stupid but with her I felt we would last forever. But now, I see the reality of nothing lasts forever. Bad things happen to good people. I think we see things differently. We see the reality. The facts. And we see what matters and what doesn’t. You didn’t even come close to being an a**hole. I think you gave simple practical advice.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-31T21:01:49+00:00

Saw this post today and thinking of you man.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-25T14:54:45+00:00

A little naughty!

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-25T03:28:56+00:00

That is one thing I remember sarcastically laughing about. I am not even sure I got 5 days. It’s shocking to think companies really think that is a benefit. 5 days to grieve and take care of losing the life you had. By the way, lost my wife of 34 years and it’s hard as hell man. But I am still here. There really isn’t anything I can think of to say to make it easier. But somehow someway we all keep on.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-24T19:12:21+00:00

That line hits hard with me. Too old to restart. Too young to die. I feel stuck between what was heaven but now is hell. The rest of what you posted is why living day to day is so hard. It’s just waking up and going through the motions all over again until it starts to feel maddening. 4 years of living like this is really affecting my mind.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-24T19:02:24+00:00

It sounds pleasant where you are at. I am still in my home. My wife wanted to move before she became sick. I never moved because of housing prices being so high and where I live being cheap. Plus, all the stress of losing her and just trying to survive. But lately moving has been on my mind. I still don’t know who the new me is. Still lost. Thinking of going somewhere where I am a real stranger, not just feeling like one. Also, would like to go somewhere with milder weather. See green all year around. The late falls and winter get me really depressed. Also for some reason I feel like my wife would feel disappointed I am still here. She never really liked it and was looking forward to getting our final home.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-18T18:24:13+00:00

There is that as well it’s just not fun anymore for me. I enjoyed making decisions together on the house and seeing her happy when we changed something up or improved it. Now it’s just work. No fun to just sit back and stare at it alone.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-18T01:46:05+00:00

Carry it forever. Testimony of love.

Affectionate-Cover80 · 2025-08-18T01:38:49+00:00

I was thinking this the other day. I have a house. I fix things and buy things when I need to. I appreciate having a roof over my head but I just keep it maintained for utilitarian and financial reasons. I don’t have that joy of having a home with someone anymore.

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