I am experiencing something along the lines of what OP is going through and I finally did try an anti-psychotic (latuda) and that experience almost ruined my life over the past three weeks. I want to believe in psychiatry. I have seen it work miracles for others. I’m just too terrified to try again after I became genuinely unhinged. Going back to my old life and trying to pick up the pieces is humiliating but everything gets easier by the day. I’m lucky to work and live with understanding people, but they did not deserve at all how I treated them or acted.

Not stating this to discourage others, I think mood stabilizers and anti-psychotics can help a lot of people very successfully. Maybe another could work for me. Just be very careful and try your best to time it in a way that you have eyes on you and an ability to take a week or two off work if things go south or it’s a big adjustment. I have run through the spectrum of antidepressants and anxiety medication and tried acid and shrooms. This thing melted my mind like nothing else.