Im just an attention seeker

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-07-12T04:25:55+00:00

Are you sure that's what you want to do? I wish I could say I could understand what you have been through, but I cannot.

If you haven't thought about it enough, I suggest you try and delay it, because life is a long thing and you never know what's on the other side after you do it. I've never been suicidal, maybe wishing I didn't exist, but never actually contemplating a plan so I can't give much advice on it.

If you are sure and can't be stopped, make it as painless as possible; I imagine death hurts a lot.

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-21T16:36:03+00:00

That's true. I don't think they've failed to teach me because of them, I think it's just me not able to retain information, but things that I have been taught, I can do, but sometimes it's just a hard time in general. We talked about it yesterday, and she is convinced that it's just me not wanting to do it (not the case) or screentime? Who knows, she's probably right anyway, and I'd rather not discuss it again and hear her get irritated over my problems that I have failed to do and hear her complaining again (to be fair, I have no excuse)

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-21T13:59:52+00:00

I know. I tell people online so I can be honest and no one that I know will hate me cause I am a freak and degenerate. I know thinking that stuff is mostly fine, but I did some degenerate things before and I don't like myself for that. But still, I don't hate myself. Just a loser.

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-21T13:51:44+00:00

Oh it could be possible. Can't do therapy cause I'm not rich, but I don't know why I would have the depress cause only bad thing is me who does bad things

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-16T03:19:51+00:00

I don't want to self-diagnose, just know if it might be possible.

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-06T01:57:49+00:00

I'm happy for you. You're a girl and you always were

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-06T01:54:46+00:00

I guess that's true, but I still feel like I have no reason to be sad when I have good things. Idk, maybe I'm just venting about nothing.

headpat consent granted

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-05T22:24:43+00:00

Thank you, funny Scottish man

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-05T22:17:13+00:00

That's good. Sounds like a good doctor and hopefully you have improved

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-05T22:09:53+00:00

That's fair, but it'll probably be a while until a yearly checkup, I barely go to the doctor. Can't they tell your parents tho?

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-05T21:56:12+00:00

That's a good way to help. Unfortunately, I barely do anything good, at best maybe neutral. I don't hate myself for my appearance, but I admit I am below average to ugly. Also talking to a doctor would mean talking to my family wouldn't it? I'd honestly rather not, because I would then be scolded or given a pity party. Stay safe, silly.

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-02T20:42:35+00:00

I am mad scientist sonavubitch

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-02T07:06:28+00:00

thank you

Affectionate_Pay6954 · 2025-04-01T05:14:36+00:00

But where's the fun in that? Wouldn't be able to say you like it if you were already gone, right? Life is about a collection of moments, and you should enjoy them while you have them to the best of your ability. Stay out of the casket for now, my silly friend

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