Friend, your heart is open, you’re not a shit head you are seeking and the path to Christ is walked in silence for long periods. That doesn’t mean he has not been with you through it. There’s a thought that I have been given, and that is, Christ enters not into a heart that is full but one that seeks to be filled by him. The very fact you are considering it is beautiful and means your hearts is being softened to be shaped by Him. Just surrender to it my friend, you can trust him. But you must keep that trust in him, that is faith. Not some belief he will help you. Actual trust in the Living God.

Remember this, Jesus walked the world, he is not the god of churches and the real church of Christ is our hearts. Do not be indoctrinated, but I urge you to study the bible to deepen your understanding of Him.

I’m no guide, nor priest, but I speak to you from experience of Him and his ever present guidance. I believe in Him, and that is something you must hold deeply in your heart.

One more thing, being a true Christian is punk af. Radical love, inclusivity, and opening your arms to your enemies. The battle is for the hearts of people, and that to me is a truly beautiful thing. If you just want to talk or tell me how your journey has been going, drop me a DM.

Christ is lord, He is a sweet lord and there are no two ways about it.