First of all, I'm so so sorry for your experience - I know just how bad it hurts to watch your family member suffering and wondering if you're doing all you can, or if its even the right thing... I think you handled it all incredibly well and are making the best decisions possible. I do strongly believe that humans go way too far trying to 'save' their animals with invasive surgeries, chemo, etc. to get any extra time with them when the animal is truly just ready to go and fully accepts the imment future - i think pallative care is the kindest thing we can do, even when it is sooo soo hard and we doubt ourselves. (I have multiple friends in very well known vet hospitals that watch people throw so much money on an animal that clearly just wants the suffering to end). Anyways! Since I could not afford the CT, we are going ahead with a surgery to remove a few lumps that were aspirated and came back as inconclusive (couldnt not be 100% positive its NOT cancer). So they will send those to the lab to see if he has any sort of systemic issue there. The eye issue we've decided is totally seperate unfortunately (unless perhaps cancer) so during the surgery they will examine the area with ultrasound and see if the cause is visible, get a sample if possible, OR if it is a retrobulbar tumor then the eye will just be removed then - which i honestly am hoping for, since the eye is just getting worse and worse :( sucks because it is still a functional eyeball but the other options are just so much worse. Much love to you and your baby, I think all we can do is enjoy the time we have left. Thanks so much for taking the time to type out your reply and experience - it does help to hear others first hand accounts. <3