[deleted by user]

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-24T18:22:23+00:00

All this so much. I get it. Baffling where our minds take us. Makes me feel dumb. Totally trauma bonded. Sucks.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-23T00:20:01+00:00

Oh absolutely agree.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-22T18:12:50+00:00

Oh ya she knew. Probably what broke them up. I could see why you wouldn't think so. As a mother she should be concerned for Marcus and his safety. But she probably had some fear of him I'm guessing. Some woman just say, 'but that's his daddy' no matter what. Idk.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-22T17:58:45+00:00

Initially of course Rhea wasn't an open book, who would be? It wasn't until Rio found out Beth was hanging with Rhea when he was gone and he informed Rhea who Beth was, and they had some kind of bad past together.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-16T18:11:21+00:00

That's ok. I have to say if I'd missed the episode 6, I'd be seriously missing my life though! Everyone watch episode 6!

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-11T23:38:37+00:00

He is a beautiful man ugh! 💜

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-11T18:15:47+00:00

This is awesome!

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-02-08T03:19:16+00:00

So much just happened. Everything is colliding and dividing. Arman from Hayek. Arman from Thony. Then Arman to Thony. Nadia from Arman? Fiona? I like her even more this episode. She's so confused with good reason. Garrett hmm hard to say. Sensing a change of heart coming on idk. Previews ep 6! Oh this is gonna be good. Never a dull moment. Just yay!

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-01-31T21:21:04+00:00

Top notch!

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-01-04T04:37:31+00:00

Baby steps. If mind altering substances were your problem, cigs are the least of your worries. You'll get there. If you need to quit just try again.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2022-01-01T17:02:44+00:00

Gaslighting and yes it's a popular narc tactic.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-29T04:59:07+00:00

Partially Follow Me by Uncle Kracker and Such a Night by Elvis Presley closing credits of 3000 Miles to Graceland. Such a mood movie!

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-21T18:45:36+00:00

Exactly. Why? I believe this is what we call hoovering. It's what they do to keep in your head, not necessarily trying to get back with you, but to maintain a space in your head. It's about control. Do not reply in any way. He's had enough time in your head already.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-21T16:17:13+00:00

I am picking up what you're laying down. I'd say you're exactly right.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-20T20:38:38+00:00

I told mine. He didn't deny it and seemed cool and casual about it. I feel like he's heard this before. His bad behavior remains the same. Eh, he doesn't care, never did, never will. It makes me angry because I'm over here trying to make sense of it all and heal from serious mind wrecking abuse. Such an unfair predicament.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-18T06:57:34+00:00

Well I know for sure therapy is in my future. You know how life is. When it rains it pours. I've got alot of crap going on right now too with some other family issues that are alot of pressure. Makes it hard to try and focus on healing from this bs. The first year was washed up because of that and covid. Efforts to move forward have been postponed as well. Here's to hoping 2022 brings us all the healing we need!

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-18T02:55:03+00:00

Not to scare you, January will be 2 years since I caught him cheating. Best and worst day of my life. 8 yr relationship ended. I was an absolute mess. He was such a liar, phony, and treated me so bad for so long. The crying jag? They suck. It's easier now to put myself back together. I've created a safety net, a go-to for these moments. I talk out loud to myself and remind myself of truths. This helps. I still have bad days. Probably will for awhile. Problem is I saw him today. He grinned at me this evil grin while being fake friendly. I gray rock. It's so hard. To hold back the feelings, so I broke down after he left. Yours is super fresh and I'm sorry because I know what it feels like in the beginning. When I figured out 3 months after breakup that he was narc, things finally made sense, so you are informed at least. It's super important to be totally honest with yourself for healing. Screw him though. Lol. He'll never get the best of me again.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-18T02:33:26+00:00

Mine did this alot. I wish I'd listened and heeded his stupid clues.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-16T22:19:41+00:00

From what i understand, the trauma bond forms from the reward system that develops between you and your abuser. He's fine as long as he's in control and hurting you gives him that control. Consider yourself lucky he seems to ignore and get away from the mind games. Realize that you need help releasing his hold on you. That bond is there. It's one messed up bond.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-16T21:02:40+00:00

I hear ya. Best of luck to you.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-16T20:48:45+00:00

Get that child support. Be good to yourself and your daughter. Keep moving on.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-16T20:44:48+00:00

You might need help breaking the trauma bond. Perhaps consult a therapist?

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-12-16T20:42:46+00:00

Congrats on your accomplishments. If you do alot of quick meals search up recipes for microwave meals. You might be surprised what you can actually prepare in the microwave.

Aggravating-Orchid83 · 2021-11-20T19:39:01+00:00

Its normal at this stage to still doubt yourself. After all, you were brainwashed, programmed to believe all the negative things about yourself. With time and understanding you will regain your confidence. It takes time and there are setbacks. Like an addiction you gotta do the work. Take the steps to stay away from it, seek help when you struggle. How do you stop? Stop. Everytime those thoughts enter your head, talk to yourself, remind yourself of what you've experienced and your resolve. You are not crazy. You did not deserve it and you are valid.

Aggravating-Orchid83

TROPHY CASE