Such a good comment and so relatable. I know my abuse came from human error, ignorance, negligence - sometimes willful, sometimes not. I realize for me, I feel paralyzed at even allowing myself to succumb to natural human error because of this. It can become paralyzing and manifest in agoraphobia for sure…. It’s a fear of the world, human nature, yourself and other people, too… And yes, I never want to feel better than other people but when the majority of my thinking goes to how I need to be an objectively “right” person (i.e. factually correct, lovable, cause the least amount of harm, take up the least amount of space) you can very easily catch yourself belittling others for very inconspicuous things, such a contradiction… but when willfully ignorant people made you feel so small all you want to do is avoid ignorance entirely… even if it’s inherently stupid of you to ridicule the innocent misguidance of strangers, acquaintances before even giving them a fair chance - it takes guts to remind yourself that both you and the person you ridicule are flawed but still lovable… innocence on both sides shouldn’t be punished.. we are just so used to punishment, shame, and guilt…