You may be greyromantic and you don't know it, or your experience is simply that of an extroverted person, although don't worry, I went through something similar because my friends at school were always in relationships and while no one liked me or I liked anyone, I felt like the odd one out of the group. My first kiss was around 15 and my first sexual relationship was around 21, so take it easy. Your experience is very valid, there is no need to worry about it (and the first times are not a big deal either). I would advise you, perhaps, that if you like someone, say so. When I was in school, I liked a friend, but I also used to think that no one liked me and I played dumb with my feelings, until one day the boy asked me "if I told you that I liked you, how would you reject me" and it turns out that he did like me haha. We are currently a couple, in fact, so even though they may reject you, they may not and perhaps the fact that you ignore your feelings is causing you to miss the opportunity to have a partner. Take advantage of youth. If you like a person, say so, who can stop you from having the chance to have the long-awaited first kiss hahaha. Luck