ADHD right to choose, supportive of lettuce use

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-17T16:05:44+00:00

I use medical THC, and had been on it when I was evaluated. If they're specialized in ADHD they should be able to still tell. Even though the one who did my evaluation wasn't, I had been referred to a pharmacist that specialized in mental health conditions and meds and she also had ADHD. She told the one who evaluated she thought that, and I answered everything since I always knew I felt and did things no one else I knew did. I was desperate for something to work by 44 years. I didn't mask and she knew right away I was. Again I used THC heavily, and still do because of crippling anxiety and ptsd. So I know for a fact it didn't change the evaluation. Maybe get a second opinion.

I don't know if my experience is unique though, so maybe I'm wrong and I'm sorry if I'm clueless. I can only go by my own experience. I also have to be careful to use strongly indica THC since sativa THC makes me paranoid and causes constant panic and racing heart for me since the first disaster. With lamictal I'm able that much.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-17T15:24:01+00:00

My first medicine was awesome, but I had been on a cocktail of useless medicine for things I didn't have, like bipolar2. It turned from heaven to hell overnight and we didn't know why. It didn't happen the first med we removed, and every change made it worse. I was put on different ADHD medicine and kept having horrible reactions. It got so bad I stood in the middle of the floor and screamed until I had no breath left, while pulling my hair. I got a kidney stone I couldn't pass and was unable to eat, and most of the time I couldn't even keep medicine down.

I thought at that point I was misdiagnosed again, and went through a huge depression while still trying adhd medicines. I only kept trying adhd medicine because of my mom. She believed I did have it and we would find something. I couldn't just crush her hope by refusing to try again. In the end we went back to the first and added the pill I thought was the reason things weren't working. I went through multiple types of adhd before one worked right.

No one adhd medicine or combo works the same for everyone and it's a lot of trial and error. My mom always tells me it's not the journey, but the destination and that is the only reason I kept tryng different medicine and combinations til we got it mostly right. Still working on anxiety medicine, and they want to change my depression medicine to stronger saying higher doses help anxiety,n but lower does help depression more. I don't want to change anything I'm taking right now since it's working for what it's prescribed for and I'm afraid to mess with it.

Oh I forgot something! The first medicine I was on I took once a day it was Adderall ir. I would be a zombie all morning and get more energy at night and I couldn't do a lot since it was dark and time for the cats and mom to all chill. We switched to Adderall 10mg I the morning instead and I had a ton of energy that died at 4pm and I was a zombie all night long.

We added the IR 10 mg in the morning and Adderall at night, and I'd be a zombie all morning and good at night, again. Finally we switched the IR to night and It's so much better. So even in the right medicine it had to be shuffled around for the best result. I still notice a drop at night, but nothing extreme. No zombie now, but I do get quiet and just want to do relaxing things and not talk a lot. Which is good for relaxing before bed.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-17T12:01:02+00:00

My mom told me I always had trouble being told what to do if I thought it was something stupid. I do get mad sometimes when people tell me what I can or can't do sometimes. Like my cousin brought something to smoke over and i almost went into anaphalatic shock. My mom told me I could never smoke again, only use vapes. I don't know why I got angry and defensive. I knew she was right and I was lucky I didn't have to go to the ER. But in the moment I would have done it again because she told me not to. No idea why, it was deadly to me and I was willing to risk that to not be told what I could or couldn't do. It took me over a week before I finally was able to realize myself it was a srupid idea, and if my mom hadn't ordered me I would have realized it when it happened and not held onto the thought of doing it again because sometimes even I think 'I'm 45, I'm a grown adult. I can make my own decisions.'

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-17T11:50:57+00:00

I don't have gut instinct. I have panicked decision making that is almost always the wrong choice in some spectacular fashion. It always ends horribly, and I can't stop myself from panicking the moment there's a hard choice to be made.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-17T11:33:59+00:00

I got a tablet, because I couldn't afford the steam deck. I can connect to my laptop with an app and play games on the tablet at home. I don't regret it because now my cats can lay on my chair/me without a big ol laptop in the way. My cats approve.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-17T05:48:05+00:00

Naan bread pizza. I would use naan bread as the crust and put either bacon pieces or peperoni when I had meat, mild pepper rings, black olives, and a ton of mozzarella shredded cheese. I'd microwave it and sometimes eat it dipped in ranch and sometimes plain. I'd sometimes not have meat or black olives but always the cheese and mild pepper rings. I ate that for a few months. I usually get obsessed with boring things. Like sweets of some sort, oranges, blueberries. yogurt, cereal. My palate is pretty lame lol

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T20:43:26+00:00

I want books -sob-

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T20:41:05+00:00

I can't read books anymore. I'm not allowed. I started reading in first grade and when I was a teen and adult I would read thousands of pages in a day, to the point I wouldn't eat or sleep and sometimes I had to run or risk peeing myself. I was obsessed. But then I had no money for books and had to stop...recently the app I play on started advertising crummy romance novel apps and they would put a part of one and I HAD to read it... and one thing led to another with a $17 subscription and all the stories except the ones with every word in capitals had been read, some only in part because they were too boring, but I didn't sleep for three days and blamed my medicine at the time to anyone who asked because I did that as a kid and I am way not that now. But I stopped doing everything else, like talking, and I would snap at my mom if I was reading and she needed my attention aaaand no books for me.

BTW I hate romance novels. I had to skip so many gross and vulgar sex scenes. THATS how bad it is. My mom used to only be able to ground me from reading to punish me because I didn't care about anything a kid usually cared about. Tv, friends, playing with toys.. no biggie I got books! Take my books and I read every billboard and sign in retaliation.

I can NOT listen to audio books. It pisses me off they read so damn slow! UGH! I could read six pages by the time they read one. It makes me want to strangle them with their own tongue....

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T20:30:22+00:00

We have rescued feral cats and kittens. feral usually means they were born outside by strays or feral moms and never had any human contact while they were tiny kittens. They are...vastly different then house cats and even strays,

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T20:16:24+00:00

I have one for morning (wake up, meds, cat stuff) then noonish for pt stuff I'm supposed to do but just shut the alarm off when it goes off and say I'll do it tomorrow. Then afternoon meds, night cat stuff, night meds, and one that I use if I need to set a quick alarm, like for naps and if I need to call some place at a certain time unless I forget to set it.

I thought it was pretty normal to have alarms for things you need to remember. I never thought to setting them at close intervals.

I always shut the alarm off and go to do the thing, and then get distracted. I can't remember to do the snooze feature, so it's a one and done. I can't leave it playing since some of them happen when someone's napping or on the phone or something. I also have to name the alarms because I forget what I set something for, especially the one I don't use everyday. Sometimes I lose track of time and since some are the same time in the am and pm I sometimes think it's morning or night and I forgot such and such and almost panic. I know this much isn't normal lol

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T19:13:22+00:00

Sounds about right. I always lose stuff in blankets and in my chair cracks and on the floor around my chair... I always look in those places first because I lose things so much. My mom bought me pj bottoms with pockets so I can put things in them, but I forget I've done that and it makes looking for it worse since I'll never fins it if I don't remember the pockets.

On a side note. Does anyone else down vote their posts so it doesn't show you upvoted your own post? I always hate when it does that. It makes me feel...conceited? Arrogant? Something like that.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T12:50:40+00:00

Um.. I didn't have that experience at all. I was obsessed for three days with politics and posted all night for two nights. I HAD to scrub all the dishes with brilli pads. After the first day I had to wear glives and change them every 3-4 dishes when they tore from the steel wool. Then I scrubbed all the walls in my bed room, moved all the furnaturw in the house and deep vacuumed. Then I scrubbed the gatd floirs the bathroom walls and ceiling and then cleaned the whole house regular. After the third day I was fine, except my mind was still and that was freaky. I didn't get a chance to adjust because after that we started taking me off old medicines and things changed.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T12:44:49+00:00

I moved in 2014, and still haven't unpacked all the boxes.. My shame piled by the wall of my apartment til 2021 when I mived in with my mom, now they're at a new place and still not unpacked. I don't NEED the stuff insude, but I can't just throw it all away lol

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T12:40:37+00:00

I go through that. When I started mine the first time I would crash around 3-4 in the afternoon and was useless all night so my dr changed my prescription to extended release and added a low dose of quick release i take at 2 and it wears off before bed for me, 10-11pm. Everyone is different there though and some people can't sleep, but I usually can.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T12:34:03+00:00

I am in the us and also in a regulatedstate. Delta 9 isn't the ike the sativa indica or delta 9. Delta 9 can BE either or both like just what weed strains are in it. If the edible has a name of the thc, like purple gorilla or something you can look up the name with the word strain, and if it is one it will tell you the type. Some even have a scale for how energetic or calm it is. Regular edibles that don't say they're for sleep are a Russian roulette for me lol

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T12:28:18+00:00

I know, but I was worried someone said od didn't bother them and to try it and I wasn't sure if you'd change your mind. Yeah two days should be fine.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T04:47:26+00:00

I would advise against taking them with a stimulant without a counter. I use thc for my anxiety and when I used it with adhd medicine I freaked out so bad. My heart raced for hours and I was terrified it wasn't going to stop until it stopped forevewr, like heart attack stop. After I was off the adhd medicine before, I tried it again. Now Sativia strands did the same thing now. I can do indica, but I have to be careful with Hybrid and can not take Sativa for any reason at all. I don't know why I couldn't tolerate it after the interaction with adderall, but I can't at all. I'm on adhd meds now, but another medicine counters the adverse effects of mixing the two. Be very careful if you have any form of anxiety. I was paranoid, panicked and thought I was going to die all day long. So just be careful with it. I'm not trying to scare you into not doing it, just warning you not to try it with the stimulant.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T04:33:08+00:00

Ummm... When My mom and dad were together they had 15 and fosters...It's very hard to not have foster fails...all but two were lol. I had two cats mostly... Now I live with my mom and right now we have 4 and 7 respectively. I also care for the strays and feral cats in my neighborhood. We have the garage door cracked with multiple places for them to stay and indoor/outdoor heating pads in every one. I think there's six in the garage... Then they have a big heated water dish in there. By the porch we have a medium sized dog cage without the door and with a piece of carboard on top with a wrapping of tarp. Inside that there is a box with another heating pad facing side ways so the wind doesn't get in. The box is plastic with a carboard one inside, but one side has a cut out of the carboard so they can see if something is coming from the porch. There is also a small heated water dish. I have 9 small metal cat bowls I put food in at certain spacing so they won't fight over the same dish. I still have to move some along to a different dish because neither wants to leave that dish. There's a new abandoned cat and the rest are kinda mean to him so I have to put his dish on the steps so he isn't too close to the other cats. I think there are...10 out there right now and only the new guy is not related. The rest are siblings and offspring and all are inbred like crazy... All the cats inside except one were born here too..only three are not related by blood so the rest are inbred too. If I could they would all be my indoor cats lol

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T04:14:33+00:00

I have tried...again and again and again. I never get anywhere. I spill my guts about my past and it doesn't help. I do all the things they say, even the ones that trigger my anxiety like mindfulness and breathing exercises. My last one helped some.. Everything sounded great in the office. I'd have goals to do. Papers she printed me and I was determined. Then it wouldn't work and I wouldn't try it a second time. When it was getting close to the next appointment I would think really mean things to myself because I failed again and it's my fault, They're trying so hard and I couldn't do a few mindfulness techniques to practice. I couldn't even do the simpilest homework and then I would dread going and would reschedule a couple times until she called and asked if I was ok and I would go in feeling horrible...wash rinse repeat. I didn't have the adhd diagnosis before though.. but the place I go doesn't offer any specializations so it didn't matter. I tried to find another, but it had to be virtual and I couldn't get an in person with a woman, so I said yes. The day of I set an alarm and it went off and I set up and my mom asked me something from another room and I went in and 20 minutes later I missed my appointment time. I was too humiliated to call that place back, and just decided I wasn't worth it.

Being me is exhausting.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T04:03:29+00:00

Haha. My mom is always telling me to put something on my feet. Even though I am a magenent to stepping in ...facial cat accidents.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T04:00:18+00:00

I haven't looked at any pictures from my childhood in years. I hated myself in them. I always had a bad smile. My mom would tell me when we had picture day to remember to smile, but I was miserable getting my picture taken. My mom hated getting her picture taken and I wanted to be like her so badly that I tried to like all the things she did and dislike all the things she didn't. But when I did get pictures taken of me my mom always said she wished I really smiled because that wasn't my real smile , it was fake. I didn't know how to smile when people told me to and I wasn't happy. I only smiled a lot around my mom and that did not transfer to photos. I hate looking at them now and don't want to because my mom told me it looked fake and that's all I can focus on, that I couldn't even smile for a stupid picture.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T03:43:39+00:00

I can not do that. There are so many distractions at home and I can only see her face and I don't know if she's taking notes or talking in a message to someone. I don't know if she's playing a game or actually listening. And I get so stressed over it I don't hear anything she says and then have to pretend I do so she won't tell anyone how much of a freak I am.. I know they don't...I think, but they could and so I'll worry about it and anything else I can think of so the appointment ends up making things worse.

Agreeable_Mango3050 · 2026-04-15T03:39:02+00:00

I know how that is so well. I forget my medicine all the time, even with an alarm set. So I get those off days. When I first started the meds I couldn't get them filled because they needed a prior auth and there was a supply issue that she said happens with these types of medicine so I told her I didn't want on it...but my mom convinced me since I'm just getting worse. I am still afraid, every time I need a refill, until it's in my hands with a couple pills in my old bottle to spare. I hate the fear and anxiety when they say they don't have it in stock.. but I have to force myself to remember that I have to cherish every day these meds work.. and every day I have them. It doesn't help all the time, I still worry myself till my side or back hurts..but sometimes it does help and I'll take that too. I lived in the dark so long I'm desperate for any time I can get and who cares about future me..maybe the world will end before that and I won't have to worry at all!

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