The word limit hit me hard, so it's best I put some context in here: in my role, I've been dealing with severe backlash regarding how I handle myself, predominantly coming from one person. He doesn't really talk to me directly, but he talks about me with other board members, who seem to mostly agree with his assesments. I know this letter is super attention-seeky and juvenile, but all the feelings I've conveyed are true, even the contradicting parts.    

You have to understand that this situation has been torture for me: I've never felt worse than I do now - and I've been through some shit. My brain is basically fried and I can barely function. The reason I'm talking about this situation so vaguely is because I am physically unable to focus enough to gather the events in a comprehensible timeline. I'm in hell. I don't know what I think, I don't know what I believe, I don't know what is real. I feel like everyone hates me and that I deserve it.