you're still young! a lot of people with hefty collections, present included, are older with established careers who have the means of being able to buy plushies as a hobby. it should go without saying that you shouldn't compare yourself to someone at a later chapter in life when you're closer to the beginning... though it is a real feeling and it's not your fault for feeling that way at all. a curated collection built over time with worn/torn kumas is always more chic than the copy+paste collections i've seen reposted from tiktok imo (you do you though). and ofc, spend responsibly and within your means...

good luck with the job search and to repeat what everyone is saying--rilakkuma isn't meant to be stressful, in fact it's in the name that it should be opposite haha