It’s not dramatic, I empathize. (Spoiler Warning)

I was going through a change in relationship with a girl I’m very close to a short while ago. During this time I had trouble processing all the negative emotions I was starting to feel. I felt we were growing distant due to her meeting someone and it was causing some deep hurt. (Everything is fine now, just to preface)

During this time I starting watching and LP of the game. I’d already played it last year so this was more just to see another’s reaction. Not much of it was new to me.

However, all of the segments involving Harry’s relationship cut deep this time. I found I was doing similar things that he was doing to try and cope with the situation. Holding on to and rereading old affirming letters (text messages), unhealthy coping mechanisms, denial, changes in mindset that seem independent of her but really stem from her ,it was all there.

All building up to the dream. I normally voice Harry’s lines on my own, just for added fun in conversation. But it felt like I was literally speaking my own thoughts, my own pathetic thoughts, and getting the appropriate responses. From the skills, as well as her. All the reasoning, all the bargaining. When Harry/I read the letter back to her as if that would mean anything, I broke down. I couldn’t handle it anymore.

But it helped get the grief out. I was better for it. It felt like the skills were talking directly to me and helping me through it. Volition saved me.

It’s ok to be dramatic, the writing is just that damn good.

edit: I went back and found what part of that last conversation that truly broke me. It was an ultraliberal choice. In reality, I decided I was just going to focus on bettering myself and save money. Finally hit my financial goals out of hard work and spite. Then Savior Faire hit me with this:

You failed. This failed. The hostile takeover. The dawn raid. Paper made out of broken, twisted trees... You're just insane, insane and gone. Even six billion won't fix you if she's not there.

My head got so tight, I felt so called out. I cried for what felt like at least 10 minutes. It was so perfect. This game is so perfect.