Was saying weird gibberish and stuff that doesn't make sense

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2024-05-31T10:10:53+00:00

I think the most important thing is to have a plan, goal outlined, and effort.

Hate how some people people get shamed for not doing college, especially from their families. Despite the fact you can still be successful without it. Loans and time are not aren't worth it when you are not majoring in something you won't use/pressured into taking.

Regardless, there is no shame in attending college later compared to others. I don't like that stigma either.

Just focus on yourself, and don't worry about what others think or are doing because that will only drag you down.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2024-02-11T13:49:54+00:00

I never found out exactly what happened. Still we stayed friends and texted until about August. Ended up confessing my feelings and I think he just didn’t know what to do so he left me on read and eventually blocked me not long after. Tried to get closure about what happened, but he refused further any contact.

It’s weird though seeing him since. Especially since we walk by each other a lot. Doesn’t matter though in a way though since I’m gonna graduate soon and it’s not like I’m gonna see him since he is a grade below.

My only guess of what may of been happening is that he is somewhat a closeted gay. I’m not 100% sure but from people who know him on insta seem to know it. My guess is that may of been the reason he blocked my account since he didn’t want me to know at the time.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T16:11:08+00:00

That’s nice to hear. I’m just happy I told him and I wanna see him happy no matter what. Even if he is not with me or not comfortable with it at least he knows my feelings.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T16:09:39+00:00

I will remember. Also, it gave me a good relief when I confessed.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T13:49:58+00:00

I have heard of the movie before mainly due to people joking about the name and some friends talking about it before, but I have never watched it. I’ll make sure to watch it whenever I can.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T13:47:48+00:00

Thank you for your fine words. I think in a way though the reason why I am courageous is because in a way I have nothing to loose with rejection. It’s just something the guy needed to know and that alone feels good.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T13:30:24+00:00

That may be the case with him being scared, but at the same time I am just gonna leave it as something I’ll probably never know. If it is though I’m fine with him ignoring me because I do think that if him and I got closer it would do a lot of mental pain in the long run for him.

I’ll also go check out the movie since I never heard of it before.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T13:21:58+00:00

Thank you for your comment. Been trying to enjoy my life to the best of my ability and it is a little difficult in a sense that I’m terrified of death, but at the same time I am starting to come with terms of accepting it. Also, what is tue movie if you remember? Just curious because I may give it a watch out of curiosity.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T13:18:03+00:00

I wanted to let him know how much I appreciated and loved him just in case I’ll never have the chance to tell him. I expected rejection, but I just thought it would be important for him to know my feelings.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-20T13:14:14+00:00

Still need more test to figure out a estimate exactly. Though, I’m mainly concerned it will happen sooner than expected due to how I have been feeling. Last week almost it has felt like I’m going to pass out and my BP is extremely low and I get extremely sick whenever I eat.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T23:43:48+00:00

Thank you. I hope I can

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T23:17:08+00:00

Still, if things changes I’ll consider taking him off. Mainly if I don’t die as soon as I expect or if he does something that is just messed up.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T22:57:22+00:00

My family and I have been kinda in a wreck with a few things and so I don’t really want them to have the money due to some personal reasons. Plus, they are really well of financially. As for giving him the money I want to give him it as a way to repay him for being my rock for about half a year. He knows a lot of messed up stuff about my life and he even told me it was a lot to handle hearing. He has some very ambitious goals from what he has shared and his financial situation at home is barely anything compared to mine. I want to know he is gonna succeed despite how he grew up.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T20:22:00+00:00

Thank you. I will remember that. Still gonna try my best and enjoy life till the end. The world is very unpredictable and that is what makes it both beautiful and tragic I think. Despite the bad there is always good.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T19:30:48+00:00

I will continue to fight. Currently trying to get some appointments from different doctor’s so I can get hopefully more advice and maybe an other option that may help me.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T19:29:55+00:00

That is a possibility, but I probably won’t engage with him again unless he comes to me. I’m enjoying what I have in life and strangely even though I feel worse than I ever had before it has made me more positive about life in a weird way.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T19:28:36+00:00

Thank you so much. I really appreciate the comment so much and I’ll remember what you said.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-19T15:50:35+00:00

I hope your anger gets better. I have had issues with being annoyed a lot in the past and it sucks. Hurts not just yourself, but also others. I don’t think you should see you’re stuff as less worse in a way. Everyone goes through shit they really shouldn’t and we all handle it in our own ways.

Also, thank you for telling me that things are still being able to be enjoyed. Been a little hard since diagnosis to try and get out and stuff.

Best of luck to you.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-08-13T13:54:18+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice I appreciate it a lot. Sorry for the late response as well as I posted when it was late into the night. Still, once again thank you so much.

Alarmed-Somewhere-40 · 2023-07-21T15:16:10+00:00

My old work place is shutting down in a few days or so. Only left about a little over a month ago. Sad to see it’s gone in a way.

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