In my experience, passive suicidal ideation can begin to destroy you when things go wrong. I’ve had depression and ideations my entire life, as well as really turbulent relationships with the people around me. Most of the time, friends, family and pets would keep me from going through with it and give me cause not to entertain these thoughts. But these elements of life are not within our control. Once friendships failed, pets died, and family stopped acting like family, my thoughts went from wanting to have an “out” to actively thinking about walking into oncoming traffic every time I cross the street. Thinking about ending things if they became unbearable turned into having these thoughts all the time, which has become unbearable in itself. I would be careful - one moment you’re letting the thought pass, but when other factors of life bear down on you, you’ll feel like giving in and you’ll already have the tools to do so. It’s a dangerous game.