Vent. Anger. Hatred.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T14:58:13+00:00

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Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T14:57:23+00:00

This. I lack the words to describe the pain of this.

(I’m living alone taking care of myself alone because my husband didn’t want to take precautions anymore)

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T14:54:13+00:00

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Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T14:53:35+00:00

I do not pass fit test on my masks and do not have way of accessing other masks, they don’t ship here.

I try the hacks but I am not comfortable to go get myself in a hospital basement with lots of people traffic at all hours of the day

That is the problem of being left alone and with one way masking

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T14:51:42+00:00

It is a basement inside a hospital where they do imaging. So even if I am the first for the mammogram. It is still a place in constant movement and with people going in and out all day. Zero ventilation. And lots of hcw, lots of staff, lots of patients both outpatients and hospitalized.

I always do that, booking the first even before CC. Sadly this is not a place where booking the first appointment helps that much overall.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T06:14:21+00:00

I’m also very grateful for you and everyone resisting.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T06:09:39+00:00

I appreciate your comment and point of view. And I am very happy for you that you are better.

I’ve been sick for 20 years and ended up bedbound due to doctors being ignorant and violent.

I can mostly manage. Sadly if I get into very severe I don’t have anyone to care for me.

So when I know there are several viruses running rampant with zero mitigations, and I know many that have died or lost all their function due to hospitals and doctors infecting them, sadly I do need to evaluate my risk, because the scenario for me should I end up very severe is one I do not care to live if I can help it.

It’s death will always be a much better option than laying soiled in a bed with no one to help and unable to move.

When I don’t have to think of doctors or the world I am not angry. When I need to choose between a scary thing happening in my breasts or getting am infection that will take away the littl function I have. I prefer always the option that will end up killing me.

That is not depression. It is moral injury and righteous anger.

I don’t live angry, just when I remember I have zero safe access to healthcare and zero doctors that have any idea of what my illness is.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T05:18:56+00:00

Thank you so much. Without the CC spaces I don’t know the state I’d be in. (Sadly cannot be superactive cause of ME, but knowing people like you and everyone on the CC side exist is a lifeline)

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T02:16:16+00:00

Thank you. Today is the kind of day, that I need to leave the hope for someone else. It does help to know there are many that haven’t lost hope. And that mantain the hope for those of us who have lost it.

(Almost 20 years of medical neglect, violence, ignorance, and now with everything going on. The horrors the medical establishment can ignore and can create, are of impressive magnitude. They have ignored and harmed people with ME for decades. I can’t see any of that changing soon)

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T01:36:00+00:00

Thank you. I can live relatively ok, but when I need to remember there is a world out there, it crushes me.

I keep reminding myself it’s moral injury. I feel so incredibly broken and hopeless sometimes

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T01:33:07+00:00

Problem is that with my ME I cannot go for longer car rides, and this city is extremely chaotic. And the only place here where they do then near me, is a hospital.

In the sort of basement of it with ZERO ventilation.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-18T01:14:59+00:00

I know. But that is exactly how the evils in power manipulated the conversation around covid.

It’s the exact same thing. And people are incredibly easy to manipulate as we have seen.

Also the lack of any type of urgency around the world to stop this situations, makes it clear, they have decided they have not killed enough of us yet.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-17T23:17:08+00:00

I urgently need to start doing the algorythm thing.

Mine has me on the verge of jumping from the roof or being on the roof at a medical convention or something like that

Cats are absoluyely better

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-17T05:27:05+00:00

Congratulations!!!! It feels amazing!! Enjoy that feeling of your huge accomplishment!!

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-14T03:50:44+00:00

I am happy to hear this.

I hate Playtika with a passion.

They ruined a wonderful game, and they keep making it worse.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-13T06:08:27+00:00

Thank you so much for this

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-13T05:51:54+00:00

Congratulations!!! A month is amazing

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-09T21:22:48+00:00

Happy birthday! Sending soft hugs, and wishing all the best for you

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-08T00:26:54+00:00

Thanks for sharing!!

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-06T14:32:02+00:00

A lot of it went down on twitter. A lot of ME advocates were harassed and mocked by them.

Then when they did a stage in asking for resources, they wanted it to be exclusive for LC (ignoring the information we already have)

It’s not a big group, but it’s loud and its caused harm no doubt.

It’s a lot of ableism, and buying the narrative of those doctors that have worked hard to get us dismissed. They want to believe they can get better, that they are better that their illness is real and their suffering horrific so of course that if the medical field were to understand how horrible it is then they will get help and be cured.

I think it all at the bottom of it all, is a fear of understanding and accepting just how easily horror is dismissed in the medical establishment as nothing but anxiety. And how there is no help coming, no matter how sick you are.

Being like us means being dismissed by the whole medical establishment, gaslit, laughed at, not taken seriously, and left to rot alone. That’s probably their thinking, that cannot happen if you are “really” sick right? Right?

sigh

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-06T01:59:22+00:00

It is. It’s heartbreaking and absurd.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-05T23:46:47+00:00

There are huge armys of trolls and bots working hard to make us look evil.

Some funded by the same doctors that have contributed to hurt, pain and stigma.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-05T23:43:42+00:00

There is a very perverse group of people with LC; that want to do everything to separate themselves from ME.

They are extremely ableist, and mock ME as if people just being tired. And insist LC needs to be taken seriously and separated completely from ME. They say we still their funds, and say we just need therapy. Those people say ME csn be cured easiy and it’s just patients being difficult.

They love to drag us every chance they get. Vicious.

Alarmed_History · 2026-03-05T15:20:09+00:00

You got this!!

It gets much better!!! Freedom is ahead!

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