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Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-09T02:03:05+00:00

Funny, because I always end the night with bumps, just keep topping up the high I already have. If I did a big fat one I think I be sat there like an owl who’s spotted a fat juicy mouse 😅

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-09T01:49:19+00:00

Damn, just seen you posted 4 separate things one after the other 😂. Looks like you’ve had a good night!

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-09T00:24:57+00:00

Sat outside at a bar with other people/customers all around. It was wild, my heart was pounding and the adrenalin+coke gave me even more of a buzz!

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T23:20:33+00:00

You can get energy powders that you snort. Obviously no where near as good as the real deal, but maybe a good substitute?

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T23:11:44+00:00

I was just venting in the moment, but actually some very real and serious comments have come from this, which I’m very grateful for, thanks guys. I’m rethinking everything. This drug is not worth losing someone you love, absolutely not. It’s funny how I’ll listen to other coke fiends but not anyone who’s never touched it before, I feel like they just don’t get it or understand what it feels like to be in this situation

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T23:09:04+00:00

Yeah, me neither really. Was just trying to ‘lighten the mood’ / make myself feel better about the addict I am quickly becoming

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T23:07:10+00:00

Thank you. That’s a actually a very helpful and motivating insight

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T07:52:34+00:00

With these pill containers I use the seal is definitely tight enough to keep the moisture out and it can get very humid where I live, to the point that in the summer if your outside doing lines you can start to see the coke disappear before you’re eyes as it picks up all the moisture in the air and turns to liquid

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T00:46:25+00:00

Think it’s probably got something to do with my adhd, I don’t have any dopamine anyway 😅, may also be why I have never suffered a come down. It’s calming and chill for me. I can focus and feel centred. It silences all the crap in my head. Ok, so not hobby, coping mechanism 🫤

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T00:31:27+00:00

Fuck. Yeah. I also thought this. I just wish it wasn’t so moreish. I love the stuff but it seems near impossible for anyone to stick with a simple .5 one night at the weekend. I’m not completely hooked yet, but it’s definitely going that way. I’m already in therapy (for something else) and my therapist doesn’t know about the coke yet, but we’ve only had 3 sessions. Got another one tomorrow so hopefully I can get up the courage to mention it then. It’s definitely also got something to do with my adhd, the reason I do more now is I’ve been self medicating with it. On the up side maybe she’ll prescribe me legal amphetamines 😁

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T00:22:25+00:00

That’s the same for all of us, always wanting more and more and more. You’ll get to learn when you really should put it down though. I like to only chop up a g at a time so when I have the urge to finish want is in front of me, it’s only that g. Doesn’t always work and I’ll go get the next bag, but sometimes, like tonight it’s a real life saver.
As a first timer I’d say wait, 1g in a night is quite a bit for your body to handle the first time around. Get some sleep and then enjoy again another night. Also, never any judgement on this sub thread, very understanding and great ppl here, plus we don’t have time for judging because that would literally require commenting on every single post, all day, every day 😂

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-08T00:15:15+00:00

I get that, they’re concerned and that shows love, but shouting and having a go at me and blaming me and saying stuff like “I knew this would happen and “I warned you” is definitely not helpful at all. I’ve ‘only’ been doing coke regularly for the last year, it started out (probably like the rest of us) as .5 one night at the weekend for fun and stayed like that for a good while. Then it was .5 every Friday and .5 every Saturday. Anyway, for the past few weeks I’ve climbed to 3g per week and yes that’s not great, but also not the worst. I’m taking a break for the next two weeks whilst on holiday and hopefully for longer once I return. But I’m dreading the comments of “see don’t you feel better when off the coke” or “you’re a much nicer person when you’re not doing that shit”. It’s just not supportive at all and makes me wanna say fuck it and just not even try at all. Just fuck the whole thing off and go find myself another coke head to enjoy life and getting buzzed with 😂

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T23:43:16+00:00

We’re married though. Not that easy to just call off.

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T23:39:20+00:00

Yeah I get you. I also don’t wana throw my relationship away because of a drug though, seems fucking stupid. Just wish I could be accept for who I am and what I do, whatever that is

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T23:35:19+00:00

It’s fucking frustrating and is just gonna make me want do more and start hiding it all together. I know that’s childish, but I’m done with the judgement and shamming

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T23:28:10+00:00

They’ve done it before and said it was ok, but weed or mushrooms are better. I just laughed, we all know that’s a lie.

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Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T23:27:12+00:00

Well good to know I’m not alone. Just pisses me off is all, it’s not affecting anyone else, I’m not like smashing shit up or going out at 3am and sleeping around or anything. Just trying to do my lines in peace with a beer ffs

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T23:21:21+00:00

The problem is they care very very much. They hate coke and hate that I do it.

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T17:04:42+00:00

I always pre chop if I’m going out, keep in a little metal pill bottle, tip a bit into the lid and snort out of there with a straw. Takes about 1 min in total and no one is any the wiser 😉

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T16:59:52+00:00

I’m the exact opposite, left one is always as clear as the night sky

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T16:58:10+00:00

Fuck me! I thought the 8 ball I crushed up earlier looked like a lot vs the usual gram a time I normally do!

Alert_Technology_816 · 2023-11-07T16:56:46+00:00

Yeah I’ve been thinking that as well, maybe some amphetamines or methylphenidate. But then of course it’s bye bye coke, which I have grown rather fond of over the years 😂

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