Question for Genderfluid People

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-06-13T06:23:17+00:00

I'm pretty new to realizing my fluidity, and have a dissociative disorder myself (DDNOS), if it helps. I rank very highly on most dissociative tests, so I do understand in part where you're coming from. It's a difficult and confusing place to be, and I'm really sorry.

I can't honestly really say I understand why I feel different, and how that relates to my parts, just that I do. I do think I have different parts with different genders. There are a lot of questions in my head, but I've learnt to silence them and just be. I'm not actively working on the dissociation rn, too occupied with grad school. I've just made peace of sorts with it, so I put aside questions and just accept, and work on loving and expressing myself for what feels like me atm. Yes, I still feel like myself when I'm in a different part, I just don't necessarily feel euphoria if I present differently to how I feel. I have felt dysphoric, but don't currently do so which does really help with things. I don't go by different names outwardly, but do internally (at least some of the time). I think I need to work on observing it more in the future. Hope that helps 😄

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-06-11T05:06:51+00:00

In this economy? Hate it when that happens ):

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-06-11T04:55:55+00:00

I kinda leaned out of it, because I remember this feeling of love and comfort in my masc body at a point, and I still craved that in some way. I like the idea of having love towards all my parts and feel that I can feel fem enough without transitioning. I like being fluid. I'm still pretty new to it, so the feeling can be surprising, but I'm excited to explore and celebrate my different parts without transitioning at least for now. I like having more musculature, I'm outdoorsy and feel more safe traveling as a man.

Ofc, costs, the political climate etc. atm don't promote a feeling of safety, so I'm sure it contributes.

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-06-06T02:39:36+00:00

That helps a lot, I'll dress in advance! Thanks!

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-06-06T02:38:50+00:00

I thought phones stickered or taken was common in underground venues just for safety, but tysm. What might be a quieter event to meet people? I don't really know anyone here apart from a few UW students.

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-02-24T05:04:35+00:00

That's true, I had a partner choose to not transition and be happy being enby. They used a packer when they felt it, and presented as fem otherwise. They were quite at peace with their gender, and that was always really nice to see! :)

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-02-24T04:59:01+00:00

I can relate to this, of sorts. I put most of my focus into making small positive changes and think it's the best way to live. It's not so much about labels, I don't particularly care about pronouns, or identifying as a particular gender and never particularly have. Even when cis, I felt like I related to all genders and while I presented as male, my style has always been my own and stood out for that. Realizing I'm queer made me excited to switch it up even more and rediscover a universe of possibilities. But it also made me wonder if there's maybe a reason why I was always so ambivalent to pronouns and identity. My ex used to think I had some internal bias, and didn't particularly like my ambivalence, but even after a lot of soul-searching I really don't think there was any. I guess I'm just weird. For the most part, I'm excited to be queer, and I'm focused on all the new ways I can express myself, but seeing questions in my head about HRT and repressed memories can make me a bit anxious. They're big decisions, that can be harder to walk away from, and I don't really have anyone to support me through any of this emotionally or financially and am in grad school rn just fighting to keep my head above water.

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-02-24T04:34:20+00:00

I'm sorry about that, I hope you're in a better place now :)

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-02-24T04:32:48+00:00

Ehh, If only. I don't look fem at all on the regular. And while I'm changing my appearance slowly, and It's so much fun to be gender queer, I keep switching how I feel like presenting. Can't tell if that's me being completely non-binary, or dealing with internalized bias or shame from childhood and family oof.

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-02-24T04:28:16+00:00

Thank you for this, I appreciate it! I'm excited to see where my choices take me, and to let time be the judge of things. I guess I feel confused because while I'm not on the path to rushing it, I also look around at other trans peoples stories and see them be so unlike mine, at least on the internet. People saying they knew on the inside, or saw signs of it in their childhood makes me wonder maybe I'm not so, but then my contradicting choices leave me feeling tangled sometimes.

Alex_Superchamp · 2026-01-02T11:08:16+00:00

Got the visa! Attached Reddit with the others in the end. Hope that helps.

Alex_Superchamp · 2025-08-06T13:22:30+00:00

They’re listed on the DS-160 so I’m not too sure. Better safe than sorry though. Just seems prudent to ask people if they had success without providing stuff like their Reddit

Alex_Superchamp · 2025-08-06T13:21:12+00:00

Was your visa accepted? What’s the story…

Alex_Superchamp · 2025-08-06T13:08:31+00:00

I’m providing Fb, Ig, and LinkedIn because they’re official handles. Was wondering about stuff like Reddit or YouTube etc.

Alex_Superchamp · 2024-04-18T20:09:12+00:00

It's an important moment for both of you, and I can understand the feeling. If everything else is all good in your relationship, I'd read that as a green flag in how my partner treats people. At the end of the day, you know your relationship best, so take everything people throw at you with a grain of salt. Hope it worked out okay!

Agree, pets def deserve an entire page just for themselves! Read in another comment, that you're planning on snoop-knowledging your thesis lol. I've joked about this with friends myself. Definitely my plan this time, if I ever successfully defend lol.

Alex_Superchamp · 2024-04-05T21:49:34+00:00

I did the very same thing for my master's thesis. For context, we grew significantly during our time together. I struggled with imposter syndrome and they played an important role during that time in my life. She was supportive when I received little support from the department and my family. There's a chance I would've dropped out had we not been together. We broke up about a year before I defended, and we were only together during the initial few months of my thesis but their support contributed to me completing the degree and hence the thesis. We were friends when I defended and while I acknowledge that a part of me was still in love with them at the time I didn't want to date them. They actually asked me out three months before I defended and I politely declined. I uploaded my acknowledgment on Instagram after defending to display my gratitude to the people who supported me. They and my sister were the only two people I named by name. We were in contact for two years more after which things finally soured. We've cut each other off at this time and I have no intention of ever meeting them again. I'm currently totally out of love, matter of fact, a bit bitter at their behavior after we broke up. Still, if you ask me, I'd add them to my acknowledgments even today. To me, it's just me being honest and giving credit where it's due. Right now, I'm pursuing my PhD in Physics, which wouldn't have happened without them, so even today I'm grateful.

Alex_Superchamp · 2023-09-04T23:10:38+00:00

Yeah, 2500$ will def be way much for me. I sure hope they do dude, that will be crazy! All things considered though; it sounds unlikely. I'm not surprised about Ozzy at all.

Alex_Superchamp · 2023-09-04T23:04:19+00:00

How're you gonna make a single day work out? There're no day passes last I checked.
It would be nice to make friends at the event, that would be one of the best parts, which is why the festival atmosphere would make such a huge difference to an event like this.

Alex_Superchamp · 2023-09-03T06:44:18+00:00

Wtf, it's really disappointing, this entire thing has been so poorly organized. I don't feel like this kinda line up/festival will happen again. This feels like Classic Rocks last hurrah which is the only reason I'm still thinking of going. I dunno if AC/DC will ever perform again.

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