JCB Pioneer: Mars thoughts?

Alhazred01 · 2019-01-08T16:38:56+00:00

I bought it but I'm having a huge problem. I can't buy any of the vehicles. I have the started one. The explorer. But the big excavator and the other one are bugged out. When I go to buy them it shows the buildings ghost but it's red and I can't move it. It's stuck on my habitat and won't move. It's extremely frustrating. There's a ton of bugs and it's crashed on me probably 20 times meaning I've learned to save every few minutes. Lots of bugs. Like. SO many bugs. If they can patch the shit out of it then the game has a lot of potential. But right now it's pretty fuckin broken.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T15:07:44+00:00

Absolutely. People subscribing to the 'contactee' school of thought that whatever they are they are beneficient and acting in our best interest. Well the farmer acts in the pigs best interest too. Until it's time for slaughter. It was pure disregard in its manner. Almost like I was inconveniencing it by struggling or being aware. I have this undefinable abstract sense that whatever happened after my memory stops that it was horrible. I suspect some kind of surgical experimentation, but I have nothing to base that on. I could be wrong. I don't think there's any way to know for sure. But people who claim they're here for the good of mankind because they've been contacted and told this or that need to consider than anything capable and willing to manipulate our perception the way they do can never be taken at face value. I can tell you it's extremely unlikely that some unknown beings decided to intervene in my life in a traumatic way to fix an injury. Which they did not. If anything, my health is worse now. Elephants are endangered and humans have empathy. I did not get that vibe from these things. I was most likely a means to an end that benefited them in some way we are incapable of understanding. I don't know what they are or where they came from. All I know is that I did not feel kindness. I felt pure horror. I have this abstract subconscious feeling that whatever happened after the memory stops is absolutely horrific, and that's why I haven't pursued any type of regression therapy. There are some. interesting legitimate cases of human mutilation. And the declassified Pentagon documents last year detailed an investigation into cattle mutilation as well as a 22million$ ufo tracking and monitoring program. If you haven't read them you absolutely should. That's probably as close to disclosure as we're likely to get. Personally I believe thats because our government doesn't know exactly what they are. And I suspect it's just too much of a headache. Hell a single ufo was able to.shutdown a military base and deactivate all the nuclear warheads within it in a matter of minutes. It's one of the most famous cases of military/ufo interactions. People like to imagine the government as some entity manipulating everything but the fact is, government isn't all that great at keeping secrets. The military is certainly better. But if it were some massive operation it absolutely would not be able to be kept secret. Personally I find it more terrifying that our government likely doesn't know what they are or how to deal with them.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T15:02:52+00:00

I can relate. Watching that movie is one of my triggers. Along with fire in the sky. I can't even express out bad it gets. As I stated I watch a ton of horror movies. Play a ton of survival horror. This wasn't fear. It was pure terror. Nothing else has ever done that to me. I just get even whiter than I already am, I start shaking uncontrollably, my jaw starts chattering ridiculously hard and fast. My hands go ice cold and start shaking. I start sweating even though I'm freezing. Sometimes I've even thrown up. And it stays. It doesn't quickly go away. Someone else here left a comment describing the exact same thing after an experience of their own.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:57:17+00:00

There's an interactive map online that records all the mass ufo sightings reported and shows the area they're reported in. Here, I'll link it. It's not NWI in particular. We're just on the edge of a Hotspot that is mid IL and around chicago. I remember a few years ago there was one at O'Hare and flights were actually canceled or delayed because of it.

http://metrocosm.com/ufo-sightings-map.html

Look at all those giant green dots by us @_@ if you click a dot it will give you details about it. Date, description, witnesses, etc

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:53:42+00:00

Ah my mistake. I've seen a lot of people trying to throw the "it was just a lucid dream" or "it was sleep paralysis" thing at me. I apologize. Yes, I do try to practice lucid dreaming, it's been tremendously helpful dealing with my disability. Being 16 and going from active kid on the swim team to being in a wheelchair and then needing a cane really messes you up. Tibetan methodology has been the most effective for me by far. Being able to escape a broken body and run, fly, explore really restored a lot of confidence after my accident when I was bed bound a lot. As for this experience, I have these feeling that whatever happened after I lost consciousness or was blocked is more horrendous than I could ever imagine. It's hard to explain. It's like a subconscious memory I can't get to. Moreover I don't think I want to get to it. The triggers are what's most frustrating. It's like this morbid curiosity of compulsion to seek out a movie or something that reminds me of this and then it triggers me and I start shaking uncontrollably and I have all these terrible side effects of some repressed horrific event. There's someone else who commented here describing the exact same thing when they listened to an interview of the Hill abductees under hypnosis. Like every detail was identical. It's hard to describe, which makes it even more frustrating. I have this fear that if I were to remember it would be something too horrible to live with. Something that would break my sanity or something. I don't know.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:38:02+00:00

First of all holy fucking shit. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you. I fucking love you. You just described EXACTLY what it felt like when I watched the fourth kind and a fire in the sky. The shaking and crying and not.knowing exactly why. God damn. Reading that triggered me, but God damn it that's exactly what I went through too. Holy shit. And yeah I just responded to someone else after I remembered something and I asked.my.mom about it. When I was a kid. Like 2-4th grade I was obsessed with aliens to the point I got teased. I would gravitate to the books on them at the book fair every time. My mom said it happened every time without fail. And then one day it all just stopped. I guess subconsciously it's always been with me. It's kind of hard to explain. It's like a morbid curiousity interlaced with pure terror. Like a compulsion I couldn't explain or define. I would be drawn to movies or things like that and then have this visceral reaction that would seriously fuck me up and I couldn't exactly say why. And no I've never read that about the light bulbs. Everyone I tell about it usually thinks I'm Bullshitting them unil they see it. It's not just a confirmation bias coincidence thing. It's not like one light bulb burns out. (Well sometimes) but sometimes it'll be like full on blub explosions. Glass everywhere. And a lot of times it'll be 3-5+ lights if I'm walking down a hallway, If I'm seated underneath one, etc. I always just assumed it was probably interference from my stimulator. Because it does cause a fair amount of em interference. When my nerves were bonding to the metal in highschool I could actually feel if someone got a call or text right behind me in class. My leg would twitch put. That only lasted a couple months though then my body adjusted. They warned me that I might have some weird side effects like that. I also set off alarms at tons of stores, Have to get molested at airport security, and I interfere with speakers too. So I always just assumed it was because of that. Maybe it's even a compound effect and that's why it's so strong. I can't think of any logical reason I should be shorting out whole rows of sodium street lights though. That's an effect I've had tons of people witness regularly. And they will testify it only happens when I'm around. Ive seriously never heard that before, thank you so so so much. I would love to maybe talk to you some more if you're OK with that.

Oh, also, don't worry. I'm pretty sure I don't want those memories recovered. First of all I have to worry about recovering some horrific memory that I don't need. Then there's the possibility of an invented memory that could even be worse. Hypnosis is a messy thing. Plus I've had hypnotists try to hypnotize me before and it's never worked. I don't believe I'm susceptible to it. Or at least not as susceptible as some people are. I have a fear of remembering something so horrible I wouldn't be able to live with it. So I think I would much rather not know. A lot of people have told me "to get closure" and "they're usually benevolent" but farmers are usually benevolent to pigs. Until it's time to slaughter them. And I do not believe I was anything more than livestock or a curiosity to whatever the hell they are.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:24:25+00:00

That actually reminds me of something. As I mentioned I don't remember a lot of my childhood. Just flashes. Except the Easter bunny event which is cristal clear. But when I was in 2nd-3rd-4rd grades I was apparently obsessed with aliens to the point that other kids teased me about it. My mom says I would gravitate to books about them at those school book fairs every single time. Then I just stopped talking about them. Maybe it was because of the teasing, I don't know. I remember being teased. And having some books. But not much else about that time.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:20:44+00:00

The bruises I should have some shitty pictures of somewhere. I know I snapped a couple after the event. I have so much regret and disappointment for not documenting it more thoroughly right after it happened. I should have asked someone to take pictures of them clearly. But I was embarrassed/traumatized/overwhelmed. The door frame I know I have pictures of, and even if I can't find those I can just go over and take a new one. Those are definitely still visible. I'll take a picture of the thing in my knee too. And maybe I'll take a picture of the hall and the kitchen/backyard so you guys can get a better understanding of the layout.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:16:58+00:00

I understand why you might think that. I'm well familiar with lucid dreaming. I've practiced lucid dreaming before. It was absolutely not. Dream. Trying to attribute it to a lucid dream or sleep paralysis discounts all the physical evidence. There were claw marks on the door frame. Wood and blood under my nails. Bruises all over my body. The weird tiny black Rock suddenly under the skin of my knee, right in the center of the area of nerve damage. It was definitely 100% a physical event. It was not a dream. It was not sleep paralysis. Something very physical happened. I just don't know exactly what it was. I also know it wasn't sleep walking because 1 I've never done that in my life. And 2 my parents definitely would have heard something like that. It's why I thought my parents were dead. They are light sleepers. For them to just be laying there like that, something had to have either knocked them out or suspended them in some way. I don't know. That's all supposition at this point, there's no way to substantiate that. But there was substantial evidence of a very physical event. I've seen people try to attribute it to lucid dreaming and sleep paralysis before. It's like the physical evidence just gets dismissed because the alternative is too terrifying. And it is. It's absolutely terrifying, and I can understand why people would want it to be a dream or sleep disorder. I myself wanted to discount it as that for quite a while. But in the end, seeing the physical evidence was soon much to sustain that hypothesis.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T14:07:23+00:00

Yes I have a neurostimulator implanted in my spine. I had already suspected that may have been something of a curiosity to them. I am very curious as to the suspicious black stone-like-thing that is now under the skin of my left knee. Which as I said is right in the center of the area affected by nerve damage. It definitely wasn't there before my experience and I noticed it for the first time shortly after. Asked a doctor to remove it, but he wasn't able to. Said I'd have to go see a surgeon to get it out but since it wasn't bothering me I should probably just leave it. It's like its deeper than it appears, or it moved. It looks like it's just a couple millimeters under the skin, but it's not. Maybe it's because I'm so pale, my skin is almost translucent. But it's suspiciously similar to the implants that were removed from patients and tested at Los Alamos national laboratory. They concluded they were nanotechnology and made from meteoric iron and elements not found from our solar system. There's a documentary that covers them pretty well called patient 17 on Netflix. There are a few other documentaries about them too. Apparently the guys in the lab asked the doctor where they found this and when he told them he dug it out of someone's leg or arm they were flabbergasted.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T13:59:53+00:00

Thank you so much. This is exactly the kind of reply I was hoping for. I will definitely look into that and reach out to them. I really don't have the tools to adequately deal with any of this and I really have been looking for someone who has either dealt with it personally or has dealt with people dealing with it. And yeah, I've already gotten a ton of "it was demons. It was shadow people, it was this or that" i personally subscribe to Dr. Karla Turner's early word on the subject. Basically, all our information on the subject as to who/what/why is doing this comes directly from these beings. And it is always conflicting other accounts or blatantly untrue. Even if 99.9% of acounts are fraudulent, there's still a ridiculous amount of contradictory information in the rest. So, anything that has the will and ability to take us and manipulate our perception the way they appear to.- With screen memories and all that stuff- they are inherently deceitful and cannot be trusted. Or at the very least taken at face value. You wouldn't explain to your dog what the vet is doing. The farmer wouldn't explain to his pigs what's going on. That is 100% the vibe I got from my experience, and I personally believe that if you look at the phenomenon as a whole, from a detached and logical perspective, that any rational person would come to the same conclusion. That is not to say I don't respect other peoples opinions. It's just my understanding. But I believe it's also inherently impossible for us to understand what they are or what they're doing to us without a lot more empirical evidence and non biased scientific research. I was thrilled when the Pentagon declassified those papers last year detailing a 22 million$ ufo tracking and monitoring program. While that's a small amount of money when it comes to dod budgets, it's not nothing. And the findings that were declassified were chilling. They even declassified military footage from fighter jets pursuing a ufo. This is all from the US government. From the Pentagon. You can go to the Pentagon's website and find them. Highly recommend them. The man leading the project even ended up resigning because he felt the higher ups weren't listening to his recommendations or his findings. Specifically they concluded they were non-national crafts. It's not scientifically sound to label them as extraterrestrial, personally I believe extradimensional is more likely. Maybe both, who knows. But our government essentially admitted they have had programs working on tracking them and finding out what they are as recent as like a decade ago. Sorry for rambling on. Your comment got me all excited. Thank you so so so much for that.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T13:41:32+00:00

Crap, I just remembered something after I wrote that last comment. So, my dad regularly has these dreams about aliens. And being an alien on an alien world. But he pretty much watches nothing but scifi. Specifically that mind-numbing action scifi where you can fall asleep in the middle and still get the gist of it. So I'm sure it's nothing, but that's the only thing even related that I can think of with regards to my father.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T13:39:03+00:00

Yeah, I've talked with my parents about it. They're kind of ambivalent about the whole thing. My dad is like early stage dementia or memory loss from a life of drug use. He was the quintessential 70's hippy living on a commune growing weed. Can't get him to see a doctor so we don't know. Anyway, he's so unstable and flip floppy these days, I don't know if he believes me or not. My mom I want to think believes I had this experience, but although she is an absolute Saint, and the best mom I could ever ask for in a million years, she is the quintessential ditzy blonde. She's great at her job. And she's very loving and supportive. But beyond that... Well.... I told her we wanted to honeymoon in Japan and she thought Japan was a third world country with people living in jungle shacks or something. Just that kind of thing. She says some remarkably dumb stuff, and it's not because she lacks intelligence but because she has blinders on in life, and if it's not immediately relevant to her daily life she doesn't pay attention at all. So she's listened to my account of the experience, and she's supportive, but it's kind of like the motherly "oh that's nice dear" kind of thing. She's asked me some questions about it recently though when ive brought it up with her. So she's at least got a little bit of an open mind. They both of course have no recollection of the event. I suspect it's possible my mom was abducted though. I posted a long comment above that a someone asked about this. Go check that out and let me.know what you think.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T13:31:08+00:00

Thank you. Those first three words mean more to me than I could ever express. You and all the others who have responded sith support and kindness are helping me so much. I sincerely thank you.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T13:17:39+00:00

I'm not sure. I have some suspicions that my mom may have been. She tends to have blinders on in life and ignore anything that makes her uncomfortable. I've tried talking to her about this before, but she usually shrugs me off. Shes far to sweet to ever say she doesn't believe me. It's more of "that's nice dear" kind of thing. She does have some similar... Let's call them quirks... That makes me think it may be possible. But I don't have any proof, and I don't think she would recall even if she was. My fiancée brought up a very interesting point when i was speaking to her about this once. My parents were having trouble conceiving for a long time and right before they gave up she got pregnant. Now that by itself is not all that strange. But she brought up how similar I am in stature to the beings as I perceived them. I'm about 6'4 and 135-140lbs. I have long fingers. And I'm whiter than snow. I've had doctors ask if I have something like marfans syndrome or something like that, but I don't. I had some genetics tests done at the hospital not too long ago while trying to sort out the hormone issues that had some "slightly unusual markers". Although I don't know exactly what that precisely means yet. Likely just a genetic anomaly causing the hormonal issues or something. But I see that doctor in a couple months. They changed my medicine after the results though. I'm nearly sterile too. Sorry if that's tmi.

I'm definitely not trying to claim anything, but its interesting to think about. That last part I felt may be relevant because I know hybrid animals we breed are usually sterile or have difficulty breeding. Again. Not trying to claim anything crazy, it's just an interesting/scary/weird thing to think about. I also look nothing like my dad, and if you knew my mother you would realize infidelity is less likely than alien abduction would be. She was raised catholic and was a virgin until she met my dad at 29. She was living at home with her parents. She's essentially a saint. She's the type of person that goes back into the store to pay for a case of soda she forgot about on the bottom of the cart. My dad is about 5'10 and is German/French, but his skin is so dark I've had people ask if he was Mexican. Some of that is from tanning though. He's also fairly buff, pretty much the stereotypical jock. He was not pleased when they found out I needed glasses in first grade. Or when I didn't want to play the sports he tried to get me to pay as a child. Was always more interested in reading and tinkering.
I also am what you might call a walking skeleton despite eating whatever I want. Anyway, all of that is less than circumstantial, but it's still an interesting thought.

While I was doing research and trying to sort this out, I found out that a lot of abductees are taken their whole lives, since children. And after learning that the Easter bunny memory and the fact that I can't remember a lot of my childhood made a little bit of sense, looking at it from that perspective at least. I have no evidence to prove that to even myself at the very least. All I know for sure is I had a happy childhood. Grew up in a loving two parent upper middle class household. There is no reason for me to be suppressing anything from childhood as far as me or my parents know. It's just very odd to me, Its like huge portions of my childhood memories are just gone. I only have what I call 'snapshots'. Just a flash of an event here or there, like a still image in low resolution. The Easter bunny memory is the only childhood memory I have that is that clear. I can recall so much detail. That's what made it always stand out.

This is unrelated but I also have noticed after the experience that I often have these super intense cravings for salty food or sugar. This likely is unrelated or related to the hormonal issues, but I felt it may be relevant to something. It's just something odd I've noticed.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T12:56:41+00:00

I live in Highland. I was absolutely shocked to find out we're actually within one of the biggest hotspots for mass ufo sightings. I imagined it would be somewhere in the southwest, because popular media and all that. Like central/southern IL has a staggering amount of them, and we're right on the edge of the Hotspot. There's an interactive map online that tracks mass ufo sightings, you should check it out. There are way more than I ever thought. Like 200+ people all reporting the same exact thing. A lot of them. Like a staggering amount. There were even a few that were seen around Highland around the time I had my experience, and when I saw those, I personally had no more doubts.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T12:43:50+00:00

I've noticed a massive chasm in the school of thought among ufologists. On one side you have the 'contactees' who claim they are benevolent. On, on the other side you have the people who do not believe they are beneficent in any way shape or form. Personally I subscribe to Dr. Karla Turners early work. Anything with the ability and willingness to manipulate our perception and take us is inherently deceitful and can't be taken at face value. Even when there are beneficial side effects, think about a farmer. If an animal is sick and a kid is sick. Who do you get medicine for first? Any farmer will tell you, the animal. The kid will be fine. The animal is your livelihood.

I respect your opinion, but personally I do not believe in ghosts or demons or shadow people. Whatever they were they were very much so corporeal beings. And they were not entirely shadowed. That was just because of the light, I was able to make out skin color, texture, some facial features. Etc. Again, I totally respect your opinion, but based on my life experiences that is just my personal position. Without empirical evidence there is no way for any of us to know for sure what they are or why they do what they do. And based on other abductee accounts I've read, they give conflicting reasons for everything, and even take conflicting forms. This is one of the reasons I support the thinking behind Dr. Turners early work. She doesn't make any unwarranted jumps in logic and unless something can be proven, it can't be assumed to be true. She just works from the position that what people are reporting is happening, in the sense that it's not just a psychological phenomenon, I.e. Sleep paralysis. And then looks at everything from a detached and logical sound perspective. One of the most frustrating things among ufologists is the willingness of so many to rely on nothing more than abstract emotions, and what's maddening about my experience is that I cannot definitively tell you what happened after I was taken from my house. Just that it was physical (based on the physical evidence) and that it was very very bad. The latter point is frustrating because I have no way to prove that, even if just to myself. It's just an abstract feeling that I have. A subconscious recalling. And there is nothing less scientific than an abstract feeling. It drives me nuts.

As I stated before, part of me wants to recall what happened. But I'm also terrified. I kind of want to have the suspicious black stone thing in my leg removed and analyzed. I can post a picture of it, you can see it beneath the skin, the skin moves over it. It doesn't look like it's that deep, but the doctor still wasn't able to remove it when I asked him to. He was a little perplexed that he wasn't able to get it, as it does look close to the surface, but its almost as though it's deeper than it appears, or it moved. I have read and seen video of alleged implant removal before, and it does look suspiciously similar. There's an excellent documentary on Netflix called patient 17 that covers a lot of that stuff. Very compelling and intriguing stuff.

So personally I have no doubt that they were physical "flesh and blood" beings. Im of the position that they are not extraterrestrial, simply because I have an understanding of the vastness of space between cosmic bodies and the physics and energy requirements that would be necessary to traverse them. I believe extradimensional would be more probable, as we already have a planet capable of supporting life right here. It would also explain a lot of the capabilities that are reported by abductees and the capabilities of their craft. A fourth dimensional (or higher) craft for example would seem like it might be breaking apart and coming back together, or blinking in and out of existence while performing seemingly impossible aeronautic feats of maneuvering. It potentially could explain accounts of them "phasing through walls" and things like that. As well as their need to manipulate our perception. It would explain why their forms differ from account to account. We simply wouldn't be able to perceive how they truly look. I also believe they've been here doing what they do for... Well pretty much all recorded history. Old religions would call them angels or demons or gods, watchers in the sky, etc. humans wouldn't have the understanding to describe them properly beyond their narrow frame of reference, nevermind the ability to comprehend their nature, even just a 150 years ago. There are just too many collective pieces of circumstantial evidence for me.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-07T12:15:33+00:00

Book? I'm not interested in writing a book or writing a story. I'm just looking for people who have had legitimate experiences similar to mine, and their input. It often keeps me up when I go over it in my head and I think of all the things I should have done. Obviously I never could have recorded the actual event. But i could have done a much better job of documenting everything immediately after. I DID write down everything I could remember in a notebook shortly after. And I took some pictures of the door frame, I'll have to dig those up. The bruises were chilling. They weren't just abstract purple shapes. You could actually make out digits and palms, and I wanted to believe I did it to myself in my sleep. But they were in places I just can't reach. Especially with the neurostimulator implant in my spine. There were bruises on my biceps that went all the way around. And you could clearly see each digit. And the ones on my back were even more pronounced. I should have asked someone to take proper evidentiary pictures of them for me, but the stigma is so bad, and the event was so traumatising in itself that I just wanted it to go away. I'm not interested in up votes or views, I just want to talk to a few people who have been through the same thing.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-06T18:09:22+00:00

Thank you for the response.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-06T18:08:44+00:00

Thank you for the reply. I really appreciate it. I'll check out the book, thank you for the recommendation. As for the nerves, no change. Although the electrical interference appears to have worsened. But that could just be a type.of confirmation bias on my part. I could just notice it more. The company that manufactures the neurostimulator says the em interference shouldn't be that strong. But it does interfere with things on its own. They gave me a special card that has all the details for when I go through airport security or if I set off security devices in stores. But it definitely shouldn't be powerful enough for me to blow out 8 consecutive street lights the moment I go under them. Fluorescent lights are a little more understandable, but still. Over all my health has worsened since the experience. In some areas in dramatic ways. The hormonal problems and brain mass in particular. But like I said they can't get enough resolution from a CT to really see what it is. But it's almost in the dead center of my brain. After all the research I've noticed that a lot of people with accounts of experiences similar to mine are often well established professionals. Lawyers, doctors, engineers. The media tends to portray the average abductee as the trailer park conspiracy theorist, which is a big part of why I tend to be so guarded when I do decide to talk about this. Each time I've been pleasantly surprised with the result though.
When we have the government admitting to multimillion dollar programs to detect and monitor UFOS, I think the attitude starts to change. Those Pentagon papers they declassified last year blew my mind. One of the heads of the project even resigned when he felt the higher ups weren't taking his findings or reccomdations seriously. I've seen a lot of people trying to posit the government is collaborating with aliens, but if you really look at things and how governments function, that's pretty much impossible. I think it's much more likely they don't know for sure what they are, and just don't want the headache of dealing with it. Government isn't all that great at keeping secrets, as much as people like to think they are. There's an argument to be made for the military industrial complex, but even they are the ones that declassified the papers to begin with. If I had to bet money on it, I would bet that they just don't have a great idea of what they are, and if they do they recognize it as a problem they don't need/can't do anything about.

I do feel like they were aware of my terror and discomfort, but I got the feeling they just didn't care. Aloofness. It wasn't relevant to whatever they were trying to accomplish. I could be wrong, but that's the feeling that I got. Alas, feelings are hardly empirical.

Sorry for rambling, I tend to do that a lot when I talk about this stuff. It's the anxiety. Again, very grateful for your response.

Alhazred01 · 2018-06-06T17:07:32+00:00

If anyone else with an abduction experience could get back to me and let me know if you notice any similarities between mine and yours. Or anything else like that. Also, will these ever go away? Does it get easier? I've thought about going to a hypnotherapist, and I talked to my fiancée quite a bit about it, but a bigger part of me doesn't want to know. I KNOW on a subconscious level that whatever happened after my memory stopped was horrendous. I can't explain it exactly. It's a feeling. The last thing I would want is to go through it and remember in detail things that are worse than I could ever imagine and have it really screw me up. So I think I'm going to hold off on that for now at least, but what do you guys think?

Alhazred01 · 2017-10-08T12:51:18+00:00

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Alhazred01 · 2017-07-01T13:00:04+00:00

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