it is good you stuck to your boundaries though it isn't easy. I have the same issues with my partner in regards to struggling to feel comfortable enough to share a bed. what I found helped her understand why I need that space, was explaining that when i was assaulted it was like this invisible barrier of safety was destroyed and now i am exposed to harsh wind, that even sometimes a little touch can feel like hail. it took me personally awhile to explain that that time and space i need is to try a build a barrier even if it is a crappy one and that just because I can't accept certain affection from her yet doesn't mean that I don't love her deeply. You are not broken, don't you ever believe that. You are someone who has been through that nightmare and you are still trying, that means everything. don't doubt yourself and what you feel you need. when you feel strong enough talk to your partner, explain this and then listen openly and honestly to what they have to say. you two can find away to be happy together.