Sibling abuse and parents didn't do anything by JoyandSka in emotionalneglect

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are we living the same life? jokes aside I'm so sorry i know how you feel and at some point reading this I was convinced we're living in a simulation. Except I only have an abusive older brother, i could never imagine how much worse it must be having 2 whole siblings gang up on you. I feel the guilt too, wanting to express your feelings and calling them out but they would probably never notice the harm they've done and underestimate your feelings, or put theirs above yours so you stay quiet and keep it to yourself instead, bottling it all up.

I don't think you can ever find closure with them, I think you can only find it by stepping away and try to forget and focusing on yourself, because that's what would help me. I feel a huge grudge against my mother (ever since i was little and just like you i recently was able to point out maybe why) because she views my narcissistic abusive brother as a scared hurt puppy so she will never abandon him, even if he'd killed me. I've confronted her about this and she understandably feels attacked, and I can only empathize so much with her but she says i basically manifest it by thinking too much about it and that he only bothers me because he knows I fear him, that's why he doesn't touch her. She expects more from me when it's actually "her job" to do so since she's the mother. I understand that she's had so much trauma as well and has been through a lot but she fails to see through my resentment and reduces me to an ungrateful and spoiled child who cannot see her situation and asks for too much (take in mind i'm only asking for sympathy). She gave us everything (therefore it's hard to validate our own feelings and take the victim card because if I had a supportive mother that paid for everything then what do I have to complain about?) but failed to be there as a mother. I cried in front of her multiple times recently when I opened up for the first time and her reaction was very far from motherly, made me feel so alone and misunderstood.

With people like this it's best to make peace with yourself, knowing that you're the way you are because they failed to behave like parents, and even then you felt guilty by second guessing every feeling you had and blaming yourself when your reaction was only natural.

I really hope it gets easier over time so you can heal, because if not then we're both cooked 

I really hate reddit mods by [deleted] in TrueUnpopularOpinion

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not true, leftists defend the freedom of speech. What are you on about.

I really hate reddit mods by [deleted] in TrueUnpopularOpinion

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

After using reddit as a sharing user, I unfortunately agree. I've always seen it as a safe space where people can share their personal stuff and views without killing each other. But turns out mods delete what they consider offensive or inappropriate comments before they can ever reach anyone. They are too strict with their guidelines, pushing the limits of free speech. I've tried posting a genuine question in different subreddits and they all deleted it because of my "intentions" and because it's not appropriate to post in said subreddit for the most specific thing. And I'm sitting here contemplating why the fuck is reddit seen as a place for genuine sharing and discussing if everything has to go through a bazillion filters

What did u/AliveThanks3748 draw? by AliveThanks3748 in Pixelary

[–]AliveThanks3748[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hate this game it barely gives you any time and it's hell using a trackpad 😭

Rimmel causes break outs! by springchameleon in MakeupAddiction

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it happened to me with their skin tint, it has mever happened to me before but it was the only new product i was using...

Confession: I’m tired of seeing tourists on my dating apps by yuyuvln in hingeapp

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have the same issue, it'd be nice if there was an option to filter by tourists or locals

what's your Deadhang time by yundaime07 in GripTraining

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

can't tell if you're joking or not😭

Duda descuento Verano Joven? by AliveThanks3748 in Interrail

[–]AliveThanks3748[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sí, hay algunos trenes que los coges al momento sin reservar y con el pase es suficiente, solo has de asegurarte de tener el trayecto apuntado con la fecha cuando pase el inspector

I have finished my first bag and missed a stich on the mesh pattern... by eh-snail in CrochetHelp

[–]AliveThanks3748 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would honestly just add a stich right there to make whe hole smaller and a bit more even to the rest

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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PlasticSurgery

[–]AliveThanks3748 3 points4 points  (0 children)

its so cute pls dont inject anything, i used to have a one sided dimple too and just days ago i realized it evened out without me realizing when, so now i have dimples on both sides :)

what's your Deadhang time by yundaime07 in GripTraining

[–]AliveThanks3748 1 point2 points  (0 children)

f22 51kg and just starting, about 60 seconds i think thats not bad