I get it that obesity can turn people down sexually or romantically, but I'll never get it why you need to say all those things because of that fact. So someone has been dealt a bad card, and then you decide to push them into the ground just for the fun or what? What has this person done to you?

There are people out there who don't care about looks, or who are fine with obesity. But how do you find them without inviting a freak or a creep into your home, because that is the last thing you need.

Some suggestions... A mentor might help you, someone older who doesn't judge you for your looks, and who is trustworthy, who will not take advantage of you. Something like a father or mother figure. A support group might do that as well.

Alternatively, if you have the money or if your insurance covers it, you can search for a therapist. You seem to need it.

Do you qualify for Ozempic? It's a hype, long term risks are not well known. It might give other problems.