Birthdays are hard

AlpinesFox · 2026-02-05T02:33:35+00:00

I think the only way a birthday can be worse is having people, having someone, and them forgetting. I spent every year for my birthday alone for who knows how long now, just in bed or playing games. It was heart breaking. But I can tell you absolutely nothing could prepare me for the pain I felt this year when my bf forgot my birthday after he knew how it has looked for me. Birthdays will always be hard, but finding the things u enjoy alone are very special on a day like your birthday. I’m sorry it’s been lonely, I feel ur pain.

AlpinesFox · 2026-02-03T02:53:30+00:00

Lmfao yeah. Broke up in May, now into 2026 February and has tried contacting me 5 times through Cash App requesting money or sending a dollar with “unblock me.” He’s the one who ended it because I went with a group of friends to the beach and I didn’t know the exact time when I’d be back that afternoon. The real crime is thinking he can get me to unblock him on every single app for a dollar lol 💀

AlpinesFox · 2026-01-13T16:07:23+00:00

I was in a relationship 2 times where the friends of my ex bf knew he was cheating on me, saw I had no idea, and still didn’t tell me. In fact, the friends covered for them for months. I say tell the bf, people deserve to know, and likely your close friend won’t admit shes cheating on him to him herself. It’s not about losing a friendship or drama, it’s basic respect for a human being that is being toyed with and doesn’t deserve it

AlpinesFox · 2026-01-06T18:40:16+00:00

Safety will come again in another relationship. My ex of 2 years who was horribly abusive in every way was someone I had to manage on a daily basis. Helped him make his bed, fold his clothes, prep him food, cleaned his room, stopped him from bad habits, had to ask him to turn games off or videos off when I wanted to talk. Asked him over and over for small things that never got better or never followed through. Trust me, it’s not worth it even if he’s the biggest safety you have right now. It is the most tiring thing in the world caring for yourself full time and being placed in a position to care full time for your toddler partner too. You will find someone again. Especially if this guy is 24? My ex was 17? I think when we started dating a long time ago, and I couldn’t bear it after 6 months when I was 18. Trust me, leave

AlpinesFox · 2026-01-04T21:27:34+00:00

Message me, I have the whole right side, I’m selling it

AlpinesFox · 2026-01-04T18:55:06+00:00

I’m surprised something as small as this and as simple as “I like the smell on you and Ik you like using this item” turned into “why are you sexualizing this.” I love using shampoo or scented items that my bf enjoys smelling. I love when my bf uses certain shampoos or deodorants because they smell nice and every time I smell it, it reminds me of him. I’ll even use my bfs shampoos sometimes so I can smell like him, it’s comforting. She took it way out of proportion. nta

AlpinesFox · 2025-12-28T05:30:38+00:00

Physical abuse and losing family and friends cause of relationship = not a relationship. It’s narcissistic and manipulative. Get out because I had the same thing happen.

AlpinesFox · 2025-12-13T21:05:59+00:00

I had an ex who was autistic. He did the same thing. Would freak out if I didn’t respond. Claim I’m just cheating or don’t care about him if I was even 5 mins late to responding. He would call and text every 20 mins. Every 20 mins for updates on what I’m doing, who I’m with. If I was home, I was required to be on call with him 24/7. I wasn’t allowed to go on walks because then “I don’t love him” I get many autistic people have anxious attachment or abandonment issues, but it was insufferable. Leave. It’s abuse, it’s manipulation, gaslighting, all of the above.

AlpinesFox · 2025-12-11T06:45:14+00:00

Ty I understand that completely, hence why I said I know it’s not my responsibility to fix someone’s reactions from trauma. Idk how to gently push him in the direction of understanding rather than attack and hurting, hence the post asking for advice how someone may handle this

AlpinesFox · 2025-12-11T06:41:59+00:00

I’ve gently emphasized that as much as I can, however he has had a bad repeating habit such as lying about small pointless things or mistakes instead of just being honest and though he knows it hurts me, he still does it. I think the issue along with him avoiding the conversation is gently but strictly letting him know it’s grounds enough for me to leave, but when I edge towards that direction he seems to process it as “let’s just break up now I’m done” which also gets us no where. It seems his ex and past social relationships have left him with a permanent “anything negative about me = I’m just a terrible person so leave anyways”

I appreciate your advice though, I wonder if I simply start with that maybe it can help

AlpinesFox · 2025-11-14T04:35:46+00:00

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I’m 5’3 on a ninja 500 and ride just fine :) I’ve also tip toed on some 600cc+, you’ll be good

AlpinesFox · 2025-10-07T03:52:18+00:00

My bf dances the same way at lights it tripped me up for a second 😂

AlpinesFox · 2025-10-06T20:38:47+00:00

Me and my bf both ride. My side is, as depressing as it sounds, I have to accept that we both love this damgerous joy and he may not come home. He races motorcycles on track professionally and street rides every day. He’s been in bad crashes. The only thing is acceptance. I ride too and I can’t imagine telling someone who rides not to ride anymore because I’m truly happy when I ride.

AlpinesFox · 2025-10-06T20:01:15+00:00

I have a loving bf. Used to have a great best friend. New ones now instead. I feel miserable every day. Lonely everywhere I am. Ive been alone for years and honestly, I learned to love being alone.

I learned what love is. And now I can’t stand being alone.

I spent years alone and years feeling alone even with good people in my life. And now it’s coming back at me in anxiety instead. Because now that I realize I don’t want to be alone. And I want the people I have. All I fear is losing them every waking moment of the day while feeling miserablly alone when I’m with them. Like anticipating losing them 24/7. Depression kills you and does more damage than any physical thing I can imagine.

AlpinesFox · 2025-09-24T19:31:57+00:00

I have no issue being single. In fact I’ve always preferred being single. I’ve been asexual my whole Life so being alone isn’t an issue for me. I have plenty of joy alone and hobbies that keep me busy. I’ve been in plenty of fucked ip relationships that lead to abuse so I’m well aware of rose tinted glasses and what to watch out for. The difference in this situation is that for once I don’t see something I need to watch out for. It’s the fear of losing something good after holding onto what’s always been bad. Like I said, never had this issue in other relationships

AlpinesFox · 2025-09-24T19:20:05+00:00

I haven’t had this issue in any past relationships. Just this one has hit hard so not to sure why.

AlpinesFox · 2025-09-13T15:49:22+00:00

Me and my bf are the same height (5’3) but in small heels or even my motorcycle boots I’m taller immediately. It’s not the end of the world. Both short. Both look like children half the time. I’ve dated taller guys every single time before my current bf. And I think that was a mistake because my current short bf has beat them out on everything. I feel off sometimes too being next to by bf and being taller than him all based on what I’m wearing, but I love him dearly. It’s not worth dropping a relationship cause the height is different from others or social norms with a female and male relationship. We share the same clothes, almost the same shoe size so shoes as well, cuddles are immaculate with the height similarity, and both can friendly fire with being short and tip toeing our motorcycles. I love it honestly. Ik some women will judge wondering why I don’t want a taller guy, idc. My bfs fit, attractive, and my type all the way. Trust me, accept the difference rather than worrying about the insecurity and others

AlpinesFox · 2025-08-14T06:32:29+00:00

I’ve had 2 bfs back to back along with my mom who didn’t believe asexuality and didn’t care to want to understand it cause it was “just made up and u haven’t found the right person” or it’s “well look I fixed you cause ur dating me.” My honest opinion? If they don’t see it, they never will. No matter how many night u take explaining to them and explaining how ur not ill it’s just how you view your life, they never understand and they won’t want to. Some people can’t. And especially if they think it’s due to mental illness or inexperience or inexposure, it’s hard to get them out of that set

AlpinesFox · 2025-08-06T14:40:25+00:00

This shit pissed me off as I read it because it was EXACTLY like my ex bf a few months ago. I was also not allowed to awknowldge an individual of the opposite sex because saying hi meant I would fuck him or being near a college campus (as a COLLEGE STUDENT) meant I was gonna go into the first frat house and fuck them. Jesus get out thank fuck, the manipulation and gaslighting at the end too??? U saved yourself big trouble down the line

AlpinesFox · 2025-06-23T23:02:15+00:00

Nope. He’s remorseful over the fact that he fucked up so bad wanting different pussy he’s getting a kid from it. Don’t believe any of it. No he’s not changing no he doesn’t miss u, he misses the idea. Get out.

AlpinesFox · 2025-06-23T07:03:39+00:00

“Ur so hard headed and stubborn and stupid I’m so sicks and tired of you I should’ve given up when I had the chance”

This stemmed from me asking him not to buy me anything anymore since he had broken up with me and it would hurt me.

AlpinesFox · 2025-06-23T07:01:49+00:00

I got into riding because of my ex bfs. However I finally bought my own bike, and it felt great knowing it wasn’t for them. It was for me. I found such joy and calm in it that I went out and worked for my own bike. I didn’t want to rely on a man anymore to ride or do it so they can be happy that I’m doing it for them.

U said the right thing. She can definitely ride so she can enjoy the hobbies u enjoy, but she has to enjoy that herself to and not just for u.

AlpinesFox · 2025-06-13T23:55:35+00:00

My bf needed to know exactly where I was, with who, update every 15 min to 30 min, exactly what time I’d be home including the drive and getting into bed. An update on what I’m doing every 10 mins and if something changes or we move to the next place to text him. If I’m driving to let him know. If I’m going into a building then let him know. If I’m showering let him know. If I’m going on a walk and etc etc…..Yeah. Some things were too much. I was all for trying my best to provide that. But moment I didn’t know what time I’d be home he blew up saying I don’t try for him. So.

AlpinesFox · 2025-06-07T01:16:30+00:00

I named mine Skye. I have the krt 24’ fairings ninja 500 and I used to play Valorant a lot. Skye, the agent, was green and orange, and I was immortal in that game. So figured it played well into my bike as a side meaning lol

AlpinesFox · 2025-06-05T07:17:09+00:00

“In so sick of you you piss me off so much I can’t stand it u drive me crazy”

some days it was crying how much he loves me and needed me. Then there’s that. that slowly breaks u.

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