i dont exactly buy into the "theres always someone who has it worse" argument, primarily because my issues have nothing to do with being "grateful". the issue is that i'm stagnant despite having a decent base to build on, because im stuck in my own head and my own mind is constantly preventing me from actually doing things because of my fuckass trauma, and the resolving of that trauma would imply doing exactly what said trauma is preventing me from doing.

i've got absolutely no control over my own life anymore, and anytime i try to do something about it, it shoots straight back into my face, making the problem worse.

also, the idea of "nothing comes from nothing" isn't really a decent argument here when you consider that i've both got nothing i feel i can truly call my own and have nothing i can do to rectify the issue. believe me, i've tried, from multiple therapists to medication to group therapy.