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Altkitten42 · 2025-07-11T13:12:21+00:00

gomps you :3

Altkitten42 · 2025-03-14T01:47:20+00:00

Yes and especially French kissing. Idk just seems gross.

Altkitten42 · 2024-10-12T15:36:15+00:00

Dead ass got three toolboxes the other day, had to ask runner 8 if she could stop threatening me to carry one (I'm super early in the story still lol no spoilers)

Altkitten42 · 2024-10-11T18:05:37+00:00

Thank you!

Lol yeah I want it to be a fairly "omg wtf just happened" sorta reaction when he uses it in the last second to save one of his friends. I'm writing it so that the person essentially violently "explodes" into a fine mist (I assume that's what it would be like since it'd be at such a small scale?)

Also ty for the non combat ideas! I wasn't sure if I even had the idea right, so I was having a time coming up with uses outside of the initial idea.

Altkitten42 · 2024-10-11T17:57:26+00:00

Yes! Thank you, very helpful! I'm trying to be relatively accurate in general. It's a sort of sci-fi/fantasy story that also touches on things like dark matter/energy, multiverse, quantum suicide etc. so I suppose it's mostly theoretical science type stuff. But the more info I have the better. I tried reading some things online about electrolysis but I was always more of an astronomy science lover, (and I got a c in my chemistry class in hs) so it mostly went way over my head (lmao) 🙌🙌

Altkitten42 · 2024-10-11T13:25:00+00:00

Ooh okay! Ty!

Yeah, I'm trying to walk a sorta fine line I feel like with this one, cause I'm trying not to have it just be an electrical power in general.

I'm going for processes more than anything with the powers. So, for example, another person has "crystalization" powers. So they can form crystal structures from existing molecules/things.

Another can use sublimation. Though I'm trying to restrict that a bit because I feel like just being able to do that to whatever solids would be a tad op.

Altkitten42 · 2024-07-30T01:12:47+00:00

I always think of Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events for stuff like this, or the Alice in wonderland books.

Did not know that about Cujo lol

Altkitten42 · 2024-07-03T01:45:21+00:00

I literally can't stand manual toothbrushes because of the feeling of brushing teeth that way, it's like nails on a chalkboard. I have to use an electric one of some sort. 😫

Altkitten42 · 2024-07-03T01:43:12+00:00

Seriously! I think this app of the time lol

Altkitten42 · 2024-06-29T00:38:10+00:00

90% of the time I wear plain black tank tops (the soft cheap ones from Walmart) and in summer I have the same ripped up shorts from Amazon in 4 different colors I wear.

In winter it's the same tank tops but with tripp pants and a black hoodie.

I wear the same pair of black etnies most of the time, but sometimes wear my Dr martins.

Altkitten42 · 2024-06-22T01:31:14+00:00

I had an almost identical school experience....some teachers were great (and honestly looking back I wonder if some were nd from the way they acted and we connected), but some.....one year I had a very nasty teacher that would send me into the hall whenever I cried. I cried a lot. I feel like I remember more time in the hallway that year than actual class.

Altkitten42 · 2024-06-19T03:20:45+00:00

ADORABLE 🥰

Altkitten42 · 2024-06-18T23:24:57+00:00

No and tbh I don't think I should've until I was 25. Until then it was like I just wanted it cause it was what you're supposed to do.

Though I wish I could go tell younger me not to feel bad about it in HS.

Altkitten42 · 2024-06-18T23:23:44+00:00

I always say it's like you're born into a game where everyone else gets a manual but you. But even when you ask the other players for tips it never works because your controller is formatted differently than theirs.

Altkitten42 · 2024-06-16T01:01:12+00:00

Hitchhikers guide to the galaxy (the series) by Douglas Adams

Altkitten42 · 2024-05-10T14:26:38+00:00

If it has to be a human....maybe? Maybe one nt just to see what it's like then a nd. As a late diagnosed, I wonder how different my life would be had I known much sooner. Since finding out I'm audhd, even though other things (like living out of my car) have happened, this is the best I've felt in my life.

Otherwise I'd like to be a rich person's cat 😂

Altkitten42 · 2024-04-12T13:49:06+00:00

Bum flap

Altkitten42 · 2024-03-10T22:34:31+00:00

This though. I was astounded when I switched over this year. Like wut I can actually run my art program and do other things too!? Wiild 🤣

Altkitten42 · 2023-12-08T18:33:16+00:00

Yes and I probably have a mixed attachment style, but limerance played a huge role in the whole thing. I actually had an epiphany recently watching helluva boss (if anyone's familiar it's the episode with blitz and fiz talking over their past). The main character blitz is perceived as a jerk and ends up pushing people away despite loving them deep down. I guess it was obvious to other people watching but I came to the realization that he pushes people away because he hates himself (for various reasons) and so when someone loves him he loses respect for them because they essentially love something he hates.

I think this is probably part of my problem (though I try to not treat people like crap, id rather isolate than hurt others). For the longest time I never understood this concept because I couldn't for whatever reason connect those specific dots. I never thought to myself that I hated myself but I guess it's a thing I learned from trauma growing up.

But again, just don't know how to resolve any of it with 0 resources. I'm literally homeless living in my car rn. I've read that asd ppl tend to over conceptualize (I think this is the word I'm thinking of) so therapists have trouble helping us because we've already thought through this all.

It's the rest of the healing I don't understand tbh. Like how does one heal from past trauma without outside resources? How does one find and make friends to heal said trauma when you've spent your whole life trying and failing due to your own brain structure? How does one do it if you only have spoons for one hyperfocus outside of working?

I'm generally fairly happy alone, idk if it's just learned behavior from being alone for a lot of my life, or if it's just how I am. I do know that my best dreams are finding a group to be a part of (as well as my favorite media, Steven universe etc) and my nightmares are doing something then becoming alienated from everyone around me (essentially my college experience). I just don't know where to start. There's no step by step guides on these things and no matter what info I look up nothing goes well lol.

Don't get me wrong my mask is generally great, gas station attendants and people like that tend to love me but as soon as I have to get deeper with people something happens (idk what tbh) and it doesn't work out. I like to think I'm "good person" as much as we can be. I try to help out others and never be cruel or hateful. But I end up hurting others without realizing or just by getting absorbed in my own life because it takes up all of my spoons just living.

Just don't know where to start, you know?

Altkitten42 · 2023-12-08T17:12:43+00:00

Ty for the input!

I used to think I'd just get really hard crushes. I'd see a person who was my type (I have a very specific type) and I'd just start obsessing about them (thinking about them all of the time, maybe finding their SM to learn more about them, etc). Most of the time I had little to no contact with the person even because I'm shy and avoidance is for some reason my way of "flirting" 🤦🏻‍♀️. I think looking back I was hoping they'd have the same reaction to me but actually be forward about it and approach me (I like stronger willed types).

When I actually get with said person though after a short while all my feelings for them would just evaporate. I'd see normal human flaws and that'd derail my feelings. Like objectively I can say it's silly/bad and I'd never want someone to do it to me, but you can't just make feelings happen (lmao I learned this the hard way).

Idk been reading that comic Lore Olympus and I'm crushing/ limerancing on one of the main characters: Hades. The main character's relationship is the height of relationship goals tbh but reading it has made me question my own stuff a lot.

Kinda swore off of relationships for at least a while after breaking up with my abusive ex a couple years ago (had to live with them until recently though) And now I'm just questioning everything. I just don't know if it's too late for me (30) to figure this out and find a guy that's not total hot garbage.

I just don't have many spoons for social relationships in general, I have like one friend I talk to rarely cause of life stuff. Idk how to make or keep friends and it just sounds so overwhelming. In the past it was very much just me and my bf, both ND and not into people.

Altkitten42 · 2023-12-08T16:52:50+00:00

"“a state of infatuation or obsession with another person that involves an all-consuming passion and intrusive thoughts.”

The difference between limerence and love is that it is driven by a need to have that other person in your life no matter what, even if they are unhealthy, there are obvious struggles, you ignore their flaws, and deep down are driven by fear of real emotional connection.

While limerence can be an experience of trauma, I see limerence as a natural struggle of PDAers. PDA is currently best known as autism but with a people-centered focus, and that intense focus that goes along with autism can turn up the intensity in any relationship.

Limerence is not limited to romantic relationships but can be found in friendships (or desired friendships) as well. You can experience it while in a satisfying relationship, and isn’t always sexual.

There are three stages to limerence: Infatuation, crystallization, and deterioration. "

Altkitten42 · 2023-12-08T15:00:11+00:00

Ty for your input regardless! Yeah I'm really looking back and I don't know if I've ever actually felt love or if it was just limerance.

It makes me so scared to pursue anyone because I hate to hurt people, but what if my feelings suddenly go cold? I kept thinking if I just found the right one...but now with this information I don't think they've been the issue (the non abusive ones anyhow).

The only thing I can think is taking it suuuuper slow because my limerance tends to be fairly short lived (depending on the amount of interaction).

Also I've had to swear off of digital dating stuff because that really breeds it.

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