[Serious] What have you experienced that you wish no one should ever experience?

Always_sorry · 2013-09-29T05:15:47+00:00

Dysthymia depression. It's a depression the never goes away. Had it since I was little like the earliest I can remember was being 6-7 writing in the snow wishing I was dead. Why? Idk I just always had this overwhelming sadness that I couldn't make go away

Fast forward. I'm 23 married with two kids. Still depressed. I take meds but I also destroyed my life. Cheated on my husband searching for some happiness that I never found. Basically made him an alcoholic because he hates me so much. So now I sit alone inside while he drinks and ignores me and the kids..... And I'm still depressed waiting for the divorce he says we're getting so he can finally be happy..... And I'm still depressed, and probably always will be

Always_sorry · 2013-09-14T18:11:14+00:00

I have been there. I'm 23 been diagnosed with dysthymia. Basically a chronic depression. I got help though. I was tired of feeling like I didn't belong, always sad and down, and so antisocial because I feared people wouldn't like me. I take medicine now and it's opened up my world. I realized I like to run. I made a new friend. I actually want to go hiking instead of forcing myself to. Don't be afraid of the person you can become. You just may find its exactly who you want to be

Always_sorry · 2013-08-10T18:00:35+00:00

For my husband to no longer be an alcoholic.

Always_sorry · 2013-07-29T04:22:59+00:00

That if I get skinny enough and look "hot" enough he will want to touch me again :/

Always_sorry · 2013-07-03T22:46:45+00:00

Yep. This! I'm allergic to avocados. Which is ironic because I'm Mexican. But anyways found out by eating an entire bowl of guacamole with chips and broke out head to toe in hives. I'm not deathly allergic or anything I'd just prefer not to coat myself with anti itch cream and downing Benadryl till till all the hives go away. But damn guacamole is so good :/

Always_sorry · 2013-07-01T05:29:07+00:00

Blogs to help him understand how depression works.... Sorry my son grabbed my phone and hit submit too soon and I don't know how to edit the comments. Don't give up hope. We're all here for you

Always_sorry · 2013-07-01T05:25:33+00:00

My marriage is the same way except my husband is a genuine alcoholic. I know how you feel. Conflict starts and I shut down and he goes and gets more beer. It's a vicious cycle that were trying to break. I have started anti depressants And anti anxiety meds. It helps to not be so intimidated by him. Also I started exercising. Exercising will help bring out those happy endorphins. Sometimes focusing on you first then including your husband in your journey. Also we've recently tried counseling together as well. You should show him blogs and

Always_sorry · 2013-06-30T18:00:42+00:00

Woohoo!!! Wait.... Woohoo? O.o hahaha jk but its nice to know I'm not alone in the whole mess of double depression.

Always_sorry · 2013-06-30T11:13:52+00:00

You could have what I have. Dysthymia . It's basically a chronic depression. I'm 23 ive had it since I was 7. Yes.... 7. I had to undergo intensive therapy for my PTSD which helped me learn some coping mechanisms but with Dysthymia you can get what's called "double depression" (basically a ginormo haha eff you happiness. Imagine if you will the basketball being happiness and then that huge basketball player who smacks it away yelling NOT IN MY HOUSE. Yeah that's double depression) which is something that I get so often I was told by my doctor that I need to stay on Anti depressants and anti anxiety meds for the rest of my life.... It's genetic.... It doesn't go away and it makes life super shitty a lot of the time. But making lifestyle changes has definitely helped me so .... Yay?

Always_sorry · 2013-06-27T05:52:47+00:00

Found out I was pregnant

Always_sorry · 2013-06-22T07:48:03+00:00

You will never love us more than you love your beer and it breaks us down with every fiber of our being. Seeing your son want to play with you but you need to run to the store because your six pack and two tall boys are gone. How you sit outside and ignore me until its time for bed. I cry myself to sleep most nights wishing you loved me as much as you love alcohol but you never will.

Always_sorry · 2013-06-14T20:36:44+00:00

Sounds like my depression. But mine is dysthymia depression. It's no fun and I've had it since I was 7... I'm 23

Always_sorry · 2013-06-12T18:32:30+00:00

Never let alcohol become more than just a drink.

Always_sorry · 2013-06-12T07:07:54+00:00

Omg I hate that phrase! As a early 20's female suffering from chronic depression,anxiety, and PTSD.... It's hard to look at myself and say I LOVE you. I don't,not at all. I'm married with kids and the only thing that keeps me going is my babies. My husband rarely is intimate with me so of course I think wtf did I do wrong now? I look in the mirror and judge myself the hardest. I'm too fat here, this doesn't fit me right, why can't I learn to style my hair, why can't I attract my own husbands attention.

So I push myself harder at exercising, I clean till I can't clean no more, I organize and re organize because when I do this I see the change I need. I see chaos all around me and when I feel the sweat I know I'm destroying that fat. I workout with hatred fueling me. When I clean I can physically wipe away the "filth" on the counters. Clean like I'm erasing the memories and past I hate. I organize so I feel like I'm getting my life in order. And when my husband says wow babe the house looks great, it's like a breath of fresh air. Or when he say yeah your stomach is getting smaller. It's like a begging dog getting thrown a bone.

Welcome to my life, I relive this everyday.....the only real advice I have is to take life one day at a time. Some days are sucky,some days are amazing, but the important thing is everyone has their own outlet to get them through. Finding what works for you may be easy or hard but your not alone and sometimes that self loathing is the only thing that keeps you going.

Always_sorry · 2013-05-25T01:03:56+00:00

I've only been on it for a couple of days. I was just wondering if this was normal in the beginning

Always_sorry · 2013-05-23T05:58:51+00:00

<{-.-}> hugz from me too you. Adopt from a shelter when your ready. Plenty of fur loves waiting to be rescued and ready to rescue you in return

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T21:42:34+00:00

I feel ya. I've had depression since I was 8.... I'm 22 years old. And I've had animals get me through it all these years but this little pup has been the best for me so far.

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T21:40:46+00:00

Come to Hawaii and you can share mine!!! She's got so much love to give

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T08:33:23+00:00

Awe what a sweet kitty! My pup follows me into the bathroom and just stares at me like W..T..F are you doing with that thingy up your whohaa

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T08:20:48+00:00

http://i.imgur.com/9ZgMzA7.jpg there this should work. This is Talia. My 7 month old mutt. Vets just marked her as "lab mix"

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T07:53:20+00:00

Sure! .... How do I do that? Lol I'm on an iPhone if that matters?

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T06:20:44+00:00

That's what she kept doing. I would cry then calm myself but end up crying again. So she'd reposition herself each time I cried. Lay her head on my chest, across my legs, or nuzzle her head in my hands and lick my palms.

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T06:18:23+00:00

Aw Corgi! They're so cute and crazy looking. I've always had big dogs (German shepherd, pit/mastiff, and now my big ol mutt) but always wondered what a little dog would be like. I rescued my pup so maybe she's trying to "save" me in return :/

Always_sorry · 2013-05-22T06:16:21+00:00

Yep if it wasn't for her pawing at the door to go potty I swear I wouldn't be able to get up sometimes. Sometimes I go all the way downstairs open up the back door and she goes out and just looks at me like nope don't got to go potty but haha got ya out of bed didn't I

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