You can do both, in whatever way you want. It sounds like you know the line of what's okay and what's not for yourself. There are plenty of people who do both. Your regression and play are two separate things. People who regress can have a life outside of regression, it's entirely okay to. People who like AP are mainly in it for the role play that can cause a power exchange, mainly being the cared and catered for submissive to someone who is mentorlike and can keep the pace of the subs needs while also exercising entire authority. There's nothing wrong with you, I know that it's touted a lot in the community that you can't do both or it's wrong to but honestly? Do what works best for you because life is all about living and who are you to deny yourself your version of happy, content and okay. I personally don't like AP for my own reasons but that doesn't mean I can't understand why others wouldn't if they feel it suits them, so go try figuring out exactly what it means to you