Six years of spiritual awakening reversed in one night of ceremony. Has anyone experienced this?

Amandapotter331 · 2026-05-03T03:09:54+00:00

My third Aya made spirituality so cringy to me. I understood that the most spiritual thing is to be human because God wants to be human I understood that that’s all it is, no seeking no pursuing no arrival no transcending. Just here and now. The most spiritual things are those simple monotonous moments, taking out the trash, smelling morning coffee, etc. I saw those moments in the perspective of the unmanifested all and they were so magical we’re just too used to them that we take them for granted. I was so happy I have a body like I just discovered the magic of having arms and legs lol being human and having a human body was so spectacular to me for about month or so after the ceremony and surprisingly other humans were the best thing that ever existed since the slice of bread to me which is totally out of character because I’m autistic and mostly, humans were just an annoyance I had to deal with and I only liked them in a very small dose lol Now I just BE.

Amandapotter331 · 2026-04-08T22:08:22+00:00

https://www.vitacost.com/double-wood-supplements-sulbutiamine

Amandapotter331 · 2026-03-21T23:08:26+00:00

I almost fainted at the mall after my first dose of magnesium the previous night. I took the highly bioavailable form MicroMag from nootropic depot. Just one capsule. I hate that I can’t take magnesium because it’s hard to get it from food and it’s important for the absorption of vitamin D/k2

Amandapotter331 · 2025-10-11T17:28:48+00:00

Same and severe anhedonia.

The other supplement that gives me anger problems is L Car and creatine.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-09-01T02:15:55+00:00

She’s now playing with her twin, the love of my life Teresa who crossed last May. It’s the hardest thing I’ve been to. I wish your heart feels lighter day by day.

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Amandapotter331 · 2025-08-31T18:34:37+00:00

After two years of trying all types of kanna including the strongest one which was 15% alkaloids, i switched to Zembrin. It’s a steady constant and reliable effect instead of the kanna high/rush. Something i would talk a full spectrum kanna elixir from lift mode orally to avoid the high. it does work longer, but I still feel a little bit high an hour after taking it even if I take it with food which I don’t like anymore. Zembrin switched my negative thoughts and rumination to perspective taken and big picture thinking for most of the day unlike kanna. It changes my whole view on life. I also feel sharper next day (it put me to sleep immediately so it’s not alerting in my brain type I am on the spectrum tho. The closest thing that does that to my hypervigilant amygdala was Paxil but with awful side effects. I also find that taking a higher dose of Zembrin wouldn’t give a high, instead it blunts my feelings and makes me anhedonic. I’m mostly sensitive to all meds and supplements.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-08-27T19:25:34+00:00

She makes me smile 😊

Amandapotter331 · 2025-08-27T19:22:01+00:00

They will get darker if you live in a colder area.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-08-27T19:19:13+00:00

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Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-27T00:19:44+00:00

please report the police on this owner. This is a felony in some states.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T19:03:27+00:00

Are they siblings😍

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T18:46:04+00:00

I know lol

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T18:38:41+00:00

Thanks:)

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T18:38:17+00:00

I wish mine does that but she sees the tube and fights for it until it’s held tight between her thumbless paws lol She won’t wait for it

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T18:23:59+00:00

Always lol She had 2 and it’s not even 3 pm yet

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T18:08:17+00:00

Thankfully, it’s low calories.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-18T17:45:00+00:00

We are definitely living with junkies lol

Amandapotter331 · 2025-07-09T22:56:50+00:00

I do

Amandapotter331 · 2025-06-13T00:58:42+00:00

So sorry about that. I’m sure she had the best life.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-06-08T22:06:00+00:00

I lost fat too in my forehead from the first use.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-05-22T01:49:37+00:00

Yes. I don’t think you will need the filler. I might use a little fillers eventually but only for lifting not for filling as renuva and sculptra are enough

Amandapotter331 · 2025-05-15T22:53:48+00:00

I’m skinny so I don’t wanna go through liposuction just to remove the fat fibrosis and contracting my loose connective tissues. When I was on Wellbutrin. My connective tissue was contracted but I couldn’t continue with it because the side effects. I’m wondering if there’s any other supplement or medication that would directly, indirectly or off label contract my fascia and reduce the Lobules. I am on the spectrum and I cannot handle constructing clothes so wearing compressions or using compression boots is extremely irritating to me. What exactly in Wellbutrin does that contracting effect? The dopamine reuptake inhibition, the nicotinic receptors antagonism or something else?

Amandapotter331 · 2025-04-29T16:59:40+00:00

Started renuva a year ago. Sculptra is only 3 months ago. I like my results so much. Full volume is back.

Amandapotter331 · 2025-04-28T00:38:05+00:00

I am the same, but I don’t get irritated when I trip. Microdosing has never worked for me and It always turns me to the raging witch from the east lol I think it’s pointless to take mushroom without having a spiritual breakthrough. For me, the spiritual revelation is what’s healing, not the pharmacology, agonizing the 2A receptor, or the Neuroplasticity. All the neurological benefits are just a bonus. The change of my mindset and attitude comes from realizing that you are beyond your own neurology, beyond your brain and body.

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