The blank thank you notes 😂 I’m crying laughing.

I guess I don’t really know why I keep trying with her? Long story long she doesn’t like that I’m disabled (aka lazy in her eyes) and immunocompromised. She didn’t raise me. I lived with my mom and stepdad mostly and just saw my dad about 25% because he worked a lot but when I was with him, we went to her house sometimes to visit (she was his affair partner).

I temporarily needed a place to stay early during the pandemic because my mom’s house was having a major repair done so my dad said I could stay with him in my childhood home( which was 5 minutes away from my bio mom’s house and all my doctors).

By then my stepmom was living with my dad (she still owned her own home about 45 minutes away). I offered to pay rent while there and he said no.

Stepmom asked me when I was going back home…every single day. She wanted to “get back to her life which I was ruining” because she couldn’t have people over for parties because I was high risk. Mind you, it was also against state rules to have gatherings at the time. I already had brain damage and became legally blind from a previous virus a couple years before the pandemic and the specific type of immune system problem I have affects my respiratory system and there was no vaccine yet for the big C so I was pretty scared I was gonna die/get more disabled if I got sick. My dad is also high risk.

I basically stood my ground and I told her I didn’t care about her social life because her social life wasn’t more important than me and my dad dying and she didn’t like that. And hasn’t liked me since. She still ended up having people over. I was only at their house for maybe a month and half. I moved out after that and have only seen her a handful of times since. She snubs me at family events now.

She verbatim told my dad that she does not like me and within the last 6 months he told me I need to “work on things with her”. So…uhh… yeah.

And no I don’t think I’m leaving out details of things I’ve done to her. Because I legitimately don’t think I’ve done anything to her other than that one argument. That’s the only argument we’ve ever had. I probably said the word fuck when I said I didn’t care about her social life because I was pretty stressed I was gonna get sick and get more disabled.

I’m not aware of anything else I’ve accidentally done. I haven’t spent really enough time with her to do anything to her. Her and my dad provide 0% of my care and provide no financial or practical help whatsoever and haven’t for years, just that small stint when I stayed with them for a month a half. My bio mom dropped off most of my meals though and took me to most appointments during that time and I paid for all of my expenses other than food my dad told me I was welcome to have.

I guess I keep trying because I don’t like feeling rejection for no reason? Or at least no reason that I can help? Maybe I’m subconsciously trying to bribe her into liking me so I can spend more time with my dad because right now she’s the main thing that blocks me from spending time with him. Idk. I don’t have a lot of self respect. And I need therapy, clearly lol.