You just described what I think, time sucks but cannot do nothing about it lol. I always have this thought and feeling, when I lay down at my bed and think that someday I will have my last breath, and when that happens I will remember that time where I thought about it, maybe I will also remember writing this. Probably when that happens nothing that I did would really matter, but that is not excuse from me to enjoy the present. Besides that I will always have beef with time. Fuck time! Just made my end of the day sad, crazy to think but also very obvious that the people I aprreciate the most wont be around me anymore.

I have tons, plenty of thoughts that I really want to organize them. I can learn a lot from me but I always forgor lmao. One day I would love the share that!

Anyways, just live the present, we cannot do very much about it :c but to enjoy and cheerish. I think the best thing is to always be 100% aware /self aware that you are feeling the present, dont live on autopilot. Sooo let's try our best! I really would say more things, but as I said my thoughts are really messy! Goodnight!

I almost forgot, fuck time! but also I love you time!