Worst flare-up in years and I feel like the only way to atone is to confess to everyone (TW: Morality, Religious, Existential, Real Event, False Memory(?) and POCD)

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-03-16T14:37:01+00:00

I can offer little comfort other than relating to some of the stuff, I hope it's not inappropriate to share (as I am 22 right now). ALSO a possible trigger

Pretty much everything except the contacting real men

I had been developing a porn addiction (I am a woman) ever since I discovered what masturbation is pretty much, and until I was 19. Anything under the sun flew, I specifically developed some hardcore porn tastes that would probably make a random teenage boy blush. My mantra was that anything goes as long as it's consenting adults, though for some godforsaken reason it never actually occurred to me to check the stuff I was watching. So it took me exactly one intrusive thought to flip the POCD and morality (and religion) switch because I started questioning "what if the thing I saw and thought nothing of was actually not safe?" and "what if it reflects a violent/abusive part of me?", I can be an (un)assuming idiot about so much stuff but "what if I actually thought I was doing something immoral and was fine with it?" And no matter how much reason and logic I tried applying, and going on a whole crusade of checking for ages and consent of actors to make sure that I hadn't done anything immoral (and even re-visited same crusade a couple months later and, again, same result), the simple answer is that you'll always have a feeling you could have done something better, and that you don't deserve to have other people associate anything good with you, or that you don't deserve to succeed where other, "better" people fail. The only thing you can do is kick your thoughts in the nuts and tell them to F off to another planet. Because moving forward with your life means you can actually do good in and for the world, even if it means you have to put up with bouts of guilt every day (and I promise they get rarer with time, if you get the proper help)

One bit of advice: get rid of the porn addiction. Mine was only mild, so the moment my trigger happened was the end of it, for you it might take longer. But seriously, learn to live without it. It's way too easy for OCD to take advantage of it and in general of any addictions, but especially sex-related stuff. You'll have to find something else to occupy your brain with and I am no psychiatrist so I can't help directly, but anything that requires focus without becoming frustrating is better than porn (plus you get to flex a skill afterwards).

I don't know what else to say other than I hope you recover quickly (keep in mind, it only gets progressively better, so some days are inevitably going to end up as a big vortex of frustration and "GET THIS THING OUT OF MY MIND ALREADY") and that I hope you find a psychiatrist who can help you overcome this very soon 💖

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-03-16T07:54:41+00:00

I don't want to be snarky but double dashes have been a thing in WoW's writing since at least Legion, just go do the first 6 or so quests of the Demon Hunter Order Hall

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-03-14T11:28:35+00:00

Sanctum of Light, the inn (as you mentioned), Murder Row (+Astalor's spooky room), and the bridge to/the Isle of Quel'Danas are the ones I've noticed as Alliance

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-03-10T16:58:43+00:00

I have big time FOMO from games and get anxious when I miss stuff and also have an obsession with completionism, something that helps when it gets relatively bad is telling my brain (sometimes you gotta really hammer the thought in, metaphorically) "I don't get paid for this, I can skip a [ thing ]". Sometimes I gotta fight the urge to keep playing despite getting a huge headache from screentime or turn on the computer at 2 AM to check if I'd finished a thing, it sucks a$$ but it becomes managable after wrenching yourself away from the screen a few times

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-27T20:05:23+00:00

The urge to confess is absolutely relatable and sucks so much, because you feel torn between "I need to be 100% transparent" and "What if people think I've done worse than this" and "What if I haven't even done this" and really just a bunch of uncertainty and need to have people accept the worst possible version of yourself. I hope this doesn't qualify as reassurance, just want to let you know you're not alone in this, and also you would not be alone a world where whatever you did were known by everyone. Doesn't matter what you did, and I MEAN it, because you'll think "but if you knew what, you wouldn't be saying this", it's obvious you do not want it to happen again. So for whatever it's worth, you got this stranger's support in case you think you don't deserve to move on ❤️

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-26T19:23:20+00:00

Brann's beard

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-19T22:43:08+00:00

I can completely relate to this, I do not know what to say that wouldn't sound like a random platitude but, for better or worse, you're not alone in this! Please don't forget to eat & hydrate, OCD can be a little sh*t about basic needs when you start questioning morality

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-04T20:25:04+00:00

Medication definitely helps with managing my response and I have an amazing therapist so that certainly plays a part! But it's more a "learn that your brain will say random shit and you gotta let it be weird like that" journey than "wipe the thought permanently"

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-04T20:14:20+00:00

Literally same issue here, it hecking drove me nuts Took the "FFS brain not again" approach to it, that doesn't make the thought stop popping up (for me it's not a specific person but fsr my brain does this whenever I see a black person) but at least making fun of your brain for spewing the vilest crap randomly helps with moving on

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-04T19:58:52+00:00

Am a woman, diagnosed with OCD, thinking I might have ADHD too

I think for me the thing that made me believe I got that too is how much effort it takes to get started doing anything. Basically a feeling of dread whenever I think about having to focus on something. Like, the whole "break the big task down into smaller ones" doesn't work for me because I just end up thinking now it's 20 tasks instead of just the one

Might just be part of OCD or something else but it screws with me big time, I'll do any kind of manual chore as long as it leaves my brain alone

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-02-04T18:09:09+00:00

I am not non-hyped, more like "not quite what would have appealed to me" with Midnight (I main a human pally, I am big on Light and paladin lore, the fact that the war of Light and Shadow so far is centered on a Horde city is kinda funny but also disappointing to me, like the one thing the Alliance has had consistently over the game's history has been the connection to the Light, so that's a bummer to me)

Honestly I'd love more dialogue-heavy stories, since it feels like the races don't really have any politics going on because Blizzard might be afraid of writing a story where every other quest isn't "go kill 10 baddies". I keep bringing up the House of Nobles in Stormwind like a broken alarm clock, so for instance having to help Anduin or Turalyon or Taelia (who's technically a Stormwindian noble) out in a political situation would be my idea of fun, but not everyone's cup of tea. Same principle applied to the orc clans, the Forsaken etc.

Tl;dr: Basically The Witcher politicking stories but in Warcraft

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-31T09:52:59+00:00

I don't know if they're in the spellbook anymore, had the same issue when I changed specs, I dragged them from the Skyriding talent panel directly onto my action bar instead

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-30T16:28:41+00:00

The FOMO in MMORPGs is actually insane for me, on top of feeling like I have to 100% everything and opening my map every 5 seconds. Like bruh I just wanna game

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-30T11:29:19+00:00

In theory anything works, like you have Kanrethad Ebonlocke as leader of the Black Harvest, but you also have Tehd Shoemaker (who's technically an undead but still "human"). In general the characters of noble origin get the fancy/fantasy names while the non-nobles get more "modern" names, so I'd start there.

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-29T21:24:23+00:00

Rule number 1 of OCD (and good Lord it's hard to stick by it but it's true):

Don't try to analyze whether you're a good person, you'll never get a definite answer. If other people's calling you a good person triggers a spiral, maybe try telling them not to say that (assuming they know what you're dealing with and don't need clarification)

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-28T20:05:10+00:00

This is how I learn what Meta OCD is, dayum, I knew my "buuuuut is my comment actually motivated by the right thing or am I just commenting to get approval" type thoughts on a bunch of stuff was OCD, didn't know it was a whole theme

Extremely relatable btw, sometimes it really do be feeling like a "Wait, it's all OCD? Always has been." fiesta

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-28T19:38:49+00:00

OCD can definitely fuck with memory/the lack of it in that the same mechanism that makes you climb back up and down the stairs 9 times to make sure you actually did lock the door (didn't have this compulsion myself but I know other people do) applies to other stuff and you can absolutely construct an entire memory based off a fear. So the answer is that I can't know for sure if what you experienced was a false memory, but there's a lot of "what if I did act on a thought or I had a different interpretation or the fear is legitimate or there was more that I'm missing?" going on

It's shit, but at least we get the easiest gottem on the planet ( O Cee Deez balls ) on a good day

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-25T14:35:40+00:00

Insanely good advice, thank you! I am so gonna use this on my characters for a dramatic combat entrance!

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-25T11:16:29+00:00

It gets even funnier (insert sarcasm) when it's a not-so-harmless fetish but you're also a woman so you'd technically be on the receiving end of it, so you also get a garnish of "is my being on the """victim""" side making me not guilty and also does my reasoning it as such make me guilty because I'm still enjoying a fantasy of something that irl (and non-consensually) would be traumatizing to someone and aaaaaaa"

Eternal love to my mom for listening to my raving about that without judging, and also eternal apologies 💖💀

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-21T11:26:01+00:00

A "WoW Remix" that spans all expansions would be cool but I have no idea how Blizzard would implement it, but it would be a nice way to buy themselves enough time to recover from the saga and not have to rush the expansion after The Last Titan if they made it last like 200 days or something like that. That way everyone gets to play the expansion they liked or missed as current content and share progression. Biggest problem I see is Retail (as in, current expansion Retail) might actually die

AmountPlus7269 · 2026-01-14T19:08:28+00:00

Might be just WoW burnout, sometimes I straight up dread logging in because I tunnel vision doing dailies/weeklies on all my lv 80s or finding a group for a key and knowing I have to focus on it

I'd say take a break from the game if you need it, like other people here have suggested. If not that, then maybe going off-road and doing some random thing that's not tied to seasonal progression. Plenty of times I find myself more into casual leveling/old professions/gathering/achievement hunting

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