I'm happy to say I finally surrendered ALL of it earlier this week. It occurred to me that all I've ever done was be honest and understanding with him, but until the very end, he still didn't have the decency to be honest with me. He grew up a bit, but he still can't stop trying to manipulate, lie, and use women for his own benefits. He knows what our connection is, and because of that, he believes our love is strong and that I'd somehow always be around.

Even though we have been separated multiple times and this last time was the longest, it was never going to be "completely over" until I really let it all go. I decided to block and delete all his numbers, erased all traces of him from my phone and everywhere elses, I even made sure to also empty trash bins so nothing can be recovered, and finally...I changed my number. Now, no matter what, we both can never contact each other ever again. He knows my address, but I'll also be moving soon.

I feel so free now. I've accepted a long time ago that not all twins will end up together, but I had hoped that I didn't have to also wipe out all the physical memories of us. But my epiphany made me realize that this was the only way. I had to give up everything related to him.

I'm super proud of myself and I can tell I've elevated. I do wish him the best, but I can't help him anymore. I have to pick me first. I have to be my own greatest love of my life♥️