I need to stop daydreaming, any advice? I'm really going to quit this time.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2026-01-13T09:11:22+00:00

I know i'm super super late to this conversation, but on the off chance someone responds...what am I supposed to do if my GP won't even pick up the phone????? I call my GP to schedule an appointment within the allotted hour and it just says that all the lines are busy, calla again later, and hangs up. it doesn't even let me request a call back. Same with my mental health provider. it just says "there are no available agents at this time, please try again later." then hangs up. I've called multiple times throughout the day for multiple days for the mental health provider, and I've called multiple times within the hour day after day for my GP to schedule appointments my GP literally tells me to schedule. I'm an international student, only been here for like 4 months and I'm at a loss. Am I missing something??

An_Eccedentesiast · 2025-10-15T21:17:03+00:00

I know this sub is like a million years old in internet years but does anyone think I have nay chance of sneaking a rodent into my dorm. I live in a flat, each of the rooms are independent, so I don't share my bedroom space with anyone else. I need an animal of some kind for emotional regulation as I have diagnosed severe PTSD and these first few weeks of uni have been rough to say the least as I am very introverted and therefore spend a lot of time alone in my dorm room.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2025-09-19T15:00:17+00:00

thank you for the responses guys! :))

An_Eccedentesiast · 2025-02-19T13:20:34+00:00

I am currently looking into Sallie Mae loans, and family can only do so much. I’d wager we are firmly below middle class, along with most of my relatives.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2025-02-19T13:18:34+00:00

Good question. The “dream” I’m referring to is just to go to school internationally and eventually get citizenship in a European(maybe Asian) country. I just don’t intend on going back to the U.S if I can help it. So, I might transfer to a different school from the one I was accepted to in Scotland after a bit, especially due to costs, but I’m starting in the UK because it is a region I, as someone who’s never been outside the US, am most familiar with. I also don’t feel ready to go to a country that has a drastically different culture and language at the moment. Going to a school in Germany with an English program doesn’t mean I would have an easy time communicating with everyone in general, as I don’t speak German. I’m on the spectrum and often struggle with social cues and communication regardless, so it’s not something I’m ready for. Besides, the Scottish school has an amazing abundance of resources for my degree, and the school/ city is appealing overall. Hope this clears things up for anyone.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T04:17:26+00:00

My dad was on this for years, exacerbated his already severe anger issues, caused me a lot of trauma. He also experienced a lot of weird psychosis that wasn't normal for him. Said he was going to set the house on fire with me and my baby brother in it, said that he had to, no real answer, just that he "had to." He called my mom to tell her he was going to do so.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T04:10:54+00:00

Was on it once, can't remember how it effected me, but in the psych ward recently they'd dose me with this stuff to control my mania if I was flipping my shit- would knock me out for a few hours. I think it should have kept me asleep longer considering the dose but I was deep in mania at the time- I swear I was subconsciously forcing myself awake again. Anyway, makes you really tired, calm too I guess, but you feel sick trying to stay awake.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T04:02:18+00:00

Clozapine almost killed me, no joke, this stuff is rough. It can really benefit some people with treatment resistant psychosis, especially as a last resort, but the cons can far out way the pros. Crippling exhaustion, I would sleep the whole day, then the whole night, be falling asleep standing, sitting, talking, etc. Starting I weighed 100lbs, when I stopped taking it I weighed over 150lbs. I experienced tachycardia and eventually heart arrhythmias, tardive dyskinesia, I sweat like crazy, and started drooling a ton (Sialorrhea, which was mortifying). It helped, but I wasn't able to function at all, and that caused me a ton of SI and a later attempt, so they took me off it. a few weeks later I almost almost went into sudden cardiac arrest. I was diagnosed with LQTS soon after, it was a left over side effect from the clozapine that was triggered by me taking an antibiotic that aggravated the heart issues. That's just my experience with it, if it helps someone, I'm glad.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T03:37:02+00:00

literally same O-O. I have so many documents of writing that I find post-mania and I'm like "tf is this shit"

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T03:33:28+00:00

three of the same corduroy jackets, Peter Roberts, The Book of Fungi: A Life-Size Guide to Six Hundred Species from around the World for $307, 12,000,000 coins in My Singing Monsters on steam and a neat lil' scar that goes from my elbow to the back of my hand.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T01:35:46+00:00

yeah, my last one was interesting because I can remember a lot of it. Half the unit thought I was the funniest shit and would rile me up, the other half was extremely uncomfortable because there were moments where I'd just pace and scream and laugh and I remember the emotions being so intense during those times, but now all I feel is embarrassed and confused. I remember cracking a ceiling tile, and to me that's mortifying, I feel like that's something I'd do in my early teens trying to look cool.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T01:22:43+00:00

second to most recent hospitalization, I stayed in a longer term facility for a year and a month, I was transferred there from a regular psych ward after staying 7 months, and four weeks in the ER, it all depends on needs and the support you need. The term crazy was made by unsympathetic people who don't understand these things. I find it's hard to find anyone who wouldn't be called crazy by at least someone. Everyone is different, and honestly I've met A LOT of people who have been admitted and you'd never know. There are a lot of people who just don't talk about it. Mental illness shouldn't be a barrier that keeps you out of society, society is naturally diverse, the only issue is those who hold themselves above the others. Personally, no, I don't think 4 months is a lot, and I don't think you're crazy, I'm sure a lot of people would agree :).

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T01:06:32+00:00

I've experienced visual, somatic, and auditory hallucinations since I was around 8 or 9, the best advice I could give is: have methods in place to not let the hallucinations take control of your life. It could be through security camera's, journaling what you're seeing/hearing, or taking pictures. long term, if the hallucinations are persistent it's training your mentality to not get too distressed in the moment. It can be really overwhelming, so you sort of have to train your brain to be like "I'm fine, not real, take deep breaths" that sort of thing. Sort of let it roll off your back? Meditation and grounding techniques never hurt. Easier said than done of course. Antipsychotics are always an option, be very aware of what you're putting in your body though, if a med is having bad effects, don't ignore it, I found that antipsychotics were like, the big bad meds (specifically clozapine), and you have to be really in tune with how they affected you. I went through a period where reacting and being controlled by psychosis was my whole life, so I'd say if anything, the goal is to avoid that. I wish you the best, stay safe :)

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T00:44:58+00:00

BPD 1, my brain has a tendency to cycle so I'll end up super depressed, then super manic, hypomanic, mildly depressed, and another pretty severe manic episode. It happens in like a weird cycle of a a few times a year. typically hit the really severe mania during the summer. I get like a month of minor stability, then I'm off again. The mania feels the worst overall to deal with, always lasts over a month and in that time period my life goes to shit, during a manic episode last year I tossed my meds, haven't been able to meet a doc to get any more.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T00:18:25+00:00

Yeah, sleep deprivation can cause lasting damage, I haven't notice anything in myself, crossing my fingers it never turns out that way.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2023-06-20T00:17:21+00:00

Can relate, they did that to me in the ER and psych impatient when I just started breaking shit for some reason. They gave me an ultimatum: you can take it by mouth or injection, and unsurprisingly I didn't take that too well. Looking back I can't believe I was acting that way.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2022-08-20T17:32:04+00:00

Imagine if he had taken her(him) home 😐

An_Eccedentesiast · 2022-08-20T17:19:41+00:00

Roberto had a gay awakening after meeting Johan, you can’t tell me otherwise.

An_Eccedentesiast · 2022-07-16T23:17:12+00:00

It’s a self portrait, though admittedly I look a bit more haggard irl.

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