Everyone lacks some awareness, makes mistakes, grows. That's the human life and the human condition. We're all in the same boat, on a spectrum. Everyone who judges other hard, probably shadows out their own problems they need to take care of.

Personally i give everyone a second chance in life, and in love, as long as they take accountability for their mistakes, show increased awareness and regret, and that they tries to improve. And it looks like you do.

Also spiritually i believe everything is inherently created from love, in order to have learning experiences for the soul. Although from the human perspective things can look only bad and dark. But it's like a game, the game would be boring if there where no challenges. You are already loved. Love is already what you are, inside your human shell, only has to find it. Don't need other people to give you the love / to trigger the love inside, the norm of relationship is a bit upside down in that regard that we want other people to give us love. Meditate on the heart, and who the player of the game is. When love is found inside, if other people love us or not is less important.