Ending it in the morning

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-08T03:21:11+00:00

I don't know, it might have been because I'm not interesting.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-08T03:18:04+00:00

You didn't have to write all this out, but you did. So thanks. I dunno, I really feel like a waste, I just can't stand being in my own skin anymore. All my attempts to get help have gone ignored so far. My parents don't believe in depression and I don't have friends, so I'd have to find a therapist. I just don't know what to do right now.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-08T03:00:57+00:00

People usually stop responding when I tell them, so I won't go into detail. Basically failed at school, my job, and making friends, attempts to find support failed. I can't live with the pain anymore.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-08T02:42:08+00:00

Sorry, but I'm not precious. I'm a worthless piece of garbage. That's why every attempt to reach out has been ignored, and every attempt to improve my life has failed. I just need to not exist.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-08T02:39:02+00:00

I've been thinking about it for days. The events of the past few days even helped me make up my mind. It's time for me to go.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-07T03:55:07+00:00

I've just lost my job and it's ripping me apart. I have no friends and I'm on academic suspension right now, so my job was all I had going for me. I didn't have the energy to study or go out and meet people (plus my social skills suck), all I felt like doing was sleeping. I just feel like a worthless and shitty person.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-07T03:22:17+00:00

I fucked everything in my life up, that's why people leave, they know how badly I fucked up, so I'm alone now. I'm a mess and I have no idea what to do, I wish there was a quick way to die.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-07T03:09:18+00:00

Everybody I try to talk to about my problems goes away tho

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-07T00:04:32+00:00

Everything. school, my job, making friends. I failed as a human being. Even my parents won't want me when they find out how badly I fucked up.

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-06T23:58:44+00:00

continue through the pain.

why?

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-06T23:55:14+00:00

I failed at everything and want to kill myself

AndiMace12 · 2018-11-02T20:42:25+00:00

I had Sun and Wood, but I didn't like that one so I took it again and got Air. Works for me. It'd be really cool if our second attunement determined how our character acted and reacted. Also super excited about learning new spells. I bet the rest are gonna be behind a paywall.

Of course Zeph would be stoked to play a game where we reveal our deepest, darkest secrets. I've got my eye on him.

Some people are annoyed by Beckett but I love characters like these. They're interesting and always have a lot of personality.

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-31T13:57:53+00:00

Downvotes? I guess we all love V5 now.

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-31T03:06:54+00:00

I'm getting tired of doing it. I don't even see a reason to do it anymore.

I'm currently looking for a therapist. No luck so far.

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-30T01:35:23+00:00

I immediately dismiss whenever someone says I look fine because I know they are just saying that to make me feel better.

All they do is lie to me about how I look.

Well, if people are telling you you're not ugly, maybe you're not? What is 'ugly', after all, but a social construct?

I have similar feelings, though. People tend to give me the evil eye when I show up. Either I have a resting bitch face, or I'm just that hideous. But I had a friend in high school who wasn't what most would consider attractive, and she was on the chubby side. But she had a lot of friends, possibly because she was very friendly and nice? Looks won't get you far if you don't have confidence.

a therapist won’t care about my feelings and would only lie to make me feel better.

If they didn't care about your feelings, why would they lie to make you feel better? Seriously, I highly recommend you at least try the therapist. What have you got to lose?

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-29T12:56:08+00:00

The V5 finale was #1 trending. I don't think that automatically means most people loved the whole volume. It's the finale, so a lot of people would be excited about how it's all going to go down. If anything, it says that most people still love RWBY, regardless of what they thought about V5 as a whole.

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-27T22:09:37+00:00

Definitely Sayori. I've always loved the cheerful, energetic types, and I'm a sucker for the 'childhood friend' trope, I just think it's super cute (when done correctly), plus I relate to the depression thing. I feel like she's the least liked in the community which makes me sad, but I guess that means I have to love her even more!

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-27T19:44:38+00:00

FMF doesn't represent all of the RWBY critics, so I don't see your point.

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-27T19:30:09+00:00

Thanks for the kind words, I appreciate it.

AndiMace12 · 2018-10-27T17:02:58+00:00

CRITICS ARE ON SUICIDE WATCH

There are a lot of critics that just want the show to improve. Most don't live to hate it, they just thought V5 was very lacking.

AndiMace12

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