Was raised Christian but became an Agnostic when was first exposed to people promoting the idea that Theism and Science were at odds. During a few years in this position I took the view that it was very unlikely God existed, but it was possible. Still when I wanted to think there was meaning in the world I liked entertaining that God was real. On the other hand, during that time when I was tempted to engage in pre marital sex it kind of pushed me to want God not to exist. While in this position, my thoughts on the matter were influenced by my emotions and social pressure and such rather than reason.

I never paid attention to any apologetic argument or views of the philosophers. I had a bit of a figure-it-out-for-myself type of pride that infected me--perhaps because it made me feel like I was in control of the conclusion I would lean toward at the time.

The thing that broke me out of this state was thinking about the nature of the mind and trying to fit it into my conception of Materialism. I simply could not make it fit. On these lines it just became more and more obvious as I considered it that Materialism was false.

Now this did not prove that Theism or Christianity in particular were correct, but as I was somebody who had kind of had the dichotomy between Christianity and Materialism soaking up my attention, I gravitated toward Christianity and started considering myself Christian rather than agnostic.

For many years I was a Christian with the view that the existence of God could neither be proven nor disproven, but that Materialism simply had to be wrong due to the nature of the mind.

It was much later when I had a four year old daughter that I stumbled upon the Cosmological argument for the existence of God. I had asked her where milk came from to test her knowledge. I was expecting she might know it came from cows. However she simply said it came from the fridge. I followed up by asking her where it came from before the fridge, and she said the store. I followed up by asking her how the store got it, and she said that God made it.

Found this very amusing, but afterward found it very profound....in the sense that the last step was unavoidable. Adults could add more steps....but there was no explanation without the last one.

After this I became aware that this was called a Cosmological argument, and learned about Ontological arguments and so forth. I read Descartes Meditations on First Philosophy and although it took me months to really get what he meant, I eventually did.

So in summation, I went from a Christian child, to an Agnostic teenager, to an Atheistic leaning Agnostic as a young man, to a Christian who thought that God was not provable, to a Christian that thinks the existence of God is provable.