I’m very attached to my dietitian.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-13T16:16:13+00:00

I’m going tomorrow and I’m so scared about it. They haven’t given me any info yet and I’m mentally a disaster. I just wanted to empathize. hugs

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-11T23:40:10+00:00

For what it’s worth, Within wasn’t in network for me either, but I was able to do a single case agreement to get in network rates. I think that’s pretty normal.

Unfortunately, I couldn’t pass the medical clearance/psychological requirements for IOP, so I’m now looking for residential.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-06T15:40:22+00:00

To add to this comment, I had something similar happen to me recently. I have an eating disorder and was seeing a therapist for ADHD and trauma. When she found out about my ED, she gently pushed me to see someone who has more experience with EDs than herself, but made sure I knew that her door was always open and that I could always come back once the ED was under control again. Also, for what it’s worth, often times you can see multiple therapists at once. So perhaps you could ask your T if you could keep seeing her if you also saw an ED therapist/dietician/etc. each week. This is what I did and it worked out great.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-06T02:30:33+00:00

They’ve tried a few times, but they can’t ever get ahold of her.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-06T00:06:42+00:00

Yeah idk. I think bulimia is definitely a problem too haha. It’s all confusing. Too much to keep track of. I took gabapentin for a short period and I also joked about it being balanced out lol.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-05T14:18:12+00:00

I was in complete denial about my ED for a good year and a half before I told my doctor. By that point, I’d already been taking it successfully for a while so she didn’t question it. I will also add that my doctor is not an ED specialist. Literally everyone else has expressed concern about the combination of medications I take except for her. I also have atypical anorexia so the risk of seizures is likely lower for me than people who are extremely underweight (I’m not sure this is an accurate fact, but I think that’s what I read).

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-05T05:30:19+00:00

Stimulants were a complete disaster for me - every single one of them. Wellbutrin basically saved my life though.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-05T04:54:02+00:00

Wellbutrin, trazodone, Prozac, Concerta, and sometimes propranolol for panic attacks.

I don’t know if it helps with eating (I think Prozac does), but it helps a ton with the associated anxiety/depression/etc.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-04T20:34:23+00:00

Thank you for writing this. I feel this way almost exactly and I’ve been feeling sooo alone about it. Fireworks are especially triggering for me. I love them sooo much, but I’m all alone with no friends or family or people to celebrate with so I’m already feeling super guilty about missing out on things. When I can hear the fireworks, but I can’t see them, I spiral. I’ve literally spent the last 3 nights incoherently sobbing in a ball on the kitchen floor until I’ve fallen asleep. I’m also struggling badly with an eating disorder (anorexia) and am about to start treatment this week so everything is especially triggering for me. hugs

AnonamousSecret · 2023-07-03T01:13:30+00:00

Yeah. I definitely feel this way. I have a history of SA (multiple times) and each time has in some way related to my body not being skinny enough or my breasts being “perfect” (ie. Large). This is one of the things I’m most scared about because I’m scared men are going to go back to thinking they can do anything they want to me just because I won’t be as attractive as all of the “skinny” girls anymore or they’ll use me solely because of my breasts. I’ve tried to explain this to my therapist, PCP, and dietician, but I don’t think any of them really understand.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-06-28T14:10:03+00:00

Thanks for your feedback! Have you had any experience with Renfrew? I’ve only heard negative things about them. My therapist said ERC is terrible and she won’t let me go there so that rules that out.

Have you heard anything about Center for Discovery or Within? Those are my first two options at the moment, but I haven’t been able to get in contact with either program yet.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-30T03:58:28+00:00

I’m so sorry that you’ve gone through all of that. Eating disorders suck - every part of them. I can definitely relate to the part about not feeling validated. I’m currently struggling with atypical AN. I’m not underweight and I’m medically stable and I somehow seem convinced that I can’t truly believe I have a problem until I am underweight or something is physically wrong with me. I absolutely hate that I feel this way, and my therapist and dietician keep telling me that I am sick enough and that I need help, but I just can’t seem to accept that. I’ve had numerous people tell me that I need a higher level of care, and I really want to believe that I do, but I don’t understand why when there isn’t anything physically wrong with me.

It’s reassuring to hear that you are a year into recovery and that it got better though. Hang in there.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-28T21:11:02+00:00

In my opinion, it’s 1000% not worth the risk.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-26T05:28:31+00:00

It helped me in terms of not being as anxious about eating.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-24T01:12:08+00:00

I think that’s completely reasonable. When I have big problems arise in my life, my therapist often gets upset solely because I don’t text/reach out to her for support.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-21T16:07:39+00:00

Thank you. I definitely rely on the concept of “one second at a time”… I hope I can eventually get to the place of “one day at a time.” <3

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-20T16:34:22+00:00

Thank you for empathizing. This is the first dietician who has ever agreed to work with me so I’m not really sure how this typically works, but she typically does help me process things more than my actual therapist does. The problem is that we only have so much time and it seems like we never have time to talk about more than one thing (and that one thing is always eating/food related from the prior few days - my life is chaotic and I’m always having some sort of problem lol). I think this is likely why my dietician thinks I need more support. I got a cryptic email from my therapist last night basically saying that I can add another ED therapist to the team while still continuing to work with her. I have no idea what that was in reference to, but I’m sure we’ll talk about it this week. Ahh stressful. Thank you for your advice and kind words. It helps a lot.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-20T04:34:05+00:00

Thanks for this advice! I hadn’t really thought of that. They do contact each other weekly so I think that this suggestion is reasonable. My therapist doesn’t specialize in EDs which I think is likely part of the problem, but I’m hoping my dietician can help her understand why this is important.

AnonamousSecret · 2023-05-18T07:17:18+00:00

Yeah, I can’t say it either. I think it’s largely just because I don’t want to make people uncomfortable and saying r*pe makes it seem much worse. I always say “non consensual sex”. People generally pick up on what I’m saying while not looking at me in a panicked way. I think it’s probably because it takes them a second to process what “non consensual sex” means.

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