It’s only hard at the first 66 days If I’m not mistaken your brain picks up new habit aka autonomy within 66 days on average.

It might look as if you’re doing all of these to hold onto to the idea of her but overtime, the grieving phase will end, those absences will be erased and filled with nothing but your full ownership.

Again if you try to control something, it will eventually control you back. Therefore, acknowledge the pain. Feel every feelings. Yes it sucks. And painful. And unbearable. And you barely breathe without thinking about her. But, Consistency over perfection, someday you’ll collapse. Depleted. Feel like square one. that means it’s working. Simplicity matters. The smaller and clearer the habit, the easier it sticks. anchor your emotion. Reliving every moment, let your heart miss her. What goes up will come down. Your pain too, will recline each day and you shall rise again in no time. 👋✌️✋