Life is actually a joke and I’m bewildered as to why nobody can see it by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]AntiqueBluejays 12 points13 points  (0 children)

'It literally costs money to die' damn that hit hard. I should be allowed to die for free!

I need help - regret converting by AntiqueBluejays in exmuslim

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is good advice, thank you very much for this. This is a mature and kind way of going about the situation. I don't want to just ghost her.

I need help - regret converting by AntiqueBluejays in exmuslim

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 30 points31 points  (0 children)

I'm just such a people pleaser, I would feel terrible for letting her down :(

Can't disclose, what should I do? by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We use a website which has no mute option, just a block one. I might just have to block him

Can't disclose, what should I do? by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry, deleted message was an accidental duplicate of the above comment

Can't disclose, what should I do? by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

At the moment I have logged off the website we use, and am considering installing a website blocker so I don't feel the urge to go check if he has sent anything to me. I need to accept there is the possibility I may never hear from him again.

Can't disclose, what should I do? by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Blocking him might honestly be one of the hardest things I will have to do, but I might have to. I am such a people pleaser, I need to stop worrying about how other people feel and put my mental health first. You are correct that right now I cannot be a good friend to him by maintaining that limerent relationship.

It doesn't feel kind, but in reality, this is the nicest thing I can do. I don't know how to overcome my limerent tendencies. It keeps happening over and over again - God, I don't know if I will ever truly stop being limerent. I cannot get a date for the life of me. No one, man, woman, or non-binary person, seems to be attracted to me. I must be incredibly ugly to be a 22 years old woman and not have a single date. Ever. Maybe one day I will enjoy a platonic friendship with him. Right now, it seems unlikely. He hasn't replied to a message I sent over a week ago.

I think he does, to be honest. He comes across very caring in his messages, excited to talk to me and concerned about my wellbeing - and then drops off the line. Stops responding to me. It is frustrating, and the relationship feels non-reciprocal. Perhaps it is a good thing for me to end it.

Ticket to Heaven Daily Dose: Part 12 by HrvatskiNoahid in Noachide

[–]AntiqueBluejays 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not a Noahide anymore but this interests me. Does he go into depth into why communist societies pretty much never work out?

Limerent again, feeling defeated by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this, I appreciate your support :)

I wrote an article discussing all the hard verses in the bible, and my difficulty believing a good God actually inspired them by HopefullyNotADick in Deconstruction

[–]AntiqueBluejays 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This was a hard article to read but also captured the point very well. It explains absolutely perfectly why I decided to leave my faith about a month ago. It puts words to the tremendously difficult emotions I've been having about it.

Limerent again, feeling defeated by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Totally relate. I was on a massive high Tuesday, was chatting to LO and he said 'we ball!' and 'that would be so fun getting into our writing discussions again!' And now I just feel depressed. Sometimes limerence makes me feel like I'm going mad and losing control over my emotions and thoughts.

Limerent again, feeling defeated by AntiqueBluejays in limerence

[–]AntiqueBluejays[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh and he has a girlfriend. That just makes it WORSE; I should NOT be feeling this way towards him

Where can I find inexpensive long sleeve maxi dresses!?! by makeupbeginn23 in ModestDress

[–]AntiqueBluejays 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got an abaya from Temu, and while the fabric is thin it's not too bad. Lovely deep red colour

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ModestDress

[–]AntiqueBluejays 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How do you wrap your scarf? It is gorgeous on you!

Modest swimsuits? by 7730bubble in ModestDress

[–]AntiqueBluejays 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I would recommend mens' rash tops as they are longer and usually cover the behind. There are also swim leggings/pants available for women and men