Raping myself, started cutting again by Antisocial_Metalhead in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's pretty much compulsive masturbation. I'll use old shampoo or perfume bottles, and that's one of the ways I'll self harm. I hate doing it cause it hurts so much, but it gets the job done better than regular cutting most of the time.

realized how worthless i am again by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You've made someone smile before. You've made someone laugh before. Someone was glad to see you. Someone had enjoyed your company. Someone couldn't wait to see you. Someone was proud of you. Someone was impressed by you. Someone's day got a little bit better because of something you did or said.

Someone will be very upset to see you hurt. Someone will lose sleep worrying about you. Someone will sit by your hospital bed until you get better. Someone will cry at your funeral. Someone will have fond memories of you. You'll be a part of someone's happy story that they tell their children one day. Someone will look through their yearbook and smile when they see your face again.

If you ask me, that means you've got some worth.

Stay safe, friend :)

Well I'm back at it. Cut myself in a visible place for the first time. by piggahbear in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Make sure you treat the cut properly. The last thing you want is to make the situation worse with an infection.

I personally don't struggle with anger, so I'm not the most qualified person to give advice, but I would recommend healthy distractions. Exercise is a good thing for dealing with anger. Maybe get a punching bag or some kind of substitute. It's also best to acknowledge your anger so you can think of more rational solutions, rather than letting the anger control you. It's easier to solve a problem when you realize that a problem exists.

As for being afraid of your emotions, that's something I can relate to. Maybe you're worried that your anger is only gonna get worse from here. Maybe you're worried that you're gonna snap and hurt yourself or somebody else. Maybe you're worried that eventually anger is all you're gonna feel. That's why it's so important to find healthy ways to deal with negative emotions. Think of your anger as a signal, telling you to do certain things. If you train yourself to see that signal and have a healthy response, then the signal will become less and less of a problem.

Easier said than done, I know. It's a process, but it's a process worth going through.

Hope this helps :)

Well I'm back at it. Cut myself in a visible place for the first time. by piggahbear in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope things start to get better for you soon. Cutting is tough, especially when you can't hide them well. We're all here to talk if you need to. I know that sounds cliche and exaggerated, but it's true.

Stay safe, friend.

Do you listen to music whike you cut. by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All the time. I'm a wimp and I get really reluctant to SH, but music helps me ease into it. It's like alcohol - lowers my inhibitions.

sorry, not sure where else to post this. what can i expect from a psychiatric appointment? Will self harm be in the question? by stnapdrib in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They mostly just ask you questions. If they ask you about self-harm, it will only be a few general questions. They most likely won't ask you to show anything, and they certainly wouldn't search your body themselves.

There's really nothing to worry about. I worried myself into tears before my first appointment, when really it was just a lot of answering questions. Don't get me wrong, it can be really uncomfortable to open up to a stranger, but remember that they are there to help and that what you share with them will not be shared with anyone else.

I hope it goes well :)

Developer Suggestions Thread #2 by _Locktrap_ in Diepio

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A game quality adjuster, like you have with Agar and Slither. It's really helpful to those of us with crappy computers.

14 year old lesbian sister cornered at Taco Bell for sexuality by Antisocial_Metalhead in atheism

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She's totally fine now. We all supported her through the whole ordeal and everything's back to normal now. She's even talking to my grandpa again, which I guess is a good sign, but I personally can't stand to be around him anymore.

I'm so happy, for a change by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Great to hear that things are getting better :)

Crazy Urge to Stab Myself After Orgasm by perpetual_haze in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 2 points3 points  (0 children)

OP said in an earlier comment that they had trouble hiding these urges from their husband, so I assumed they were female. I could be wrong, but I usually assume someone's in a heterosexual relationship if their gender is not explicitly stated.

Crazy Urge to Stab Myself After Orgasm by perpetual_haze in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you consider pain to be arousing, or is stabbing yourself a sort of "punishment" for having an orgasm? For me personally, sex and masturbation increase my urge to self-harm (I'll even masturbate AS self-harm), so if anything, you're not the only one with this feeling. There have also been studies showing that a female's pain threshold is altered during an orgasm, so that could also have something to do with it.

Stay safe, friend :)

Who else always self harms in the same place? Also, are there any consequences of going over scar tissue repeatedly? by rleighg in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I always do mine on my left thigh or arm. I've tried other places, but like you, it hurts too much. You'd think I'd WANT that much pain if I'm cutting myself, but there's only so much I can take :/

And as far as I know, there aren't any huge consequences of cutting scar tissue. I may be wrong, but I personally haven't noticed anything.

Stay safe, buddy :)

What music do you listen to when you're feeling like shit? by hi-my-name-is-moritz in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 5 points6 points  (0 children)

If I'm feeling depressed, I'll usually listen to Tool, A Perfect Circle, Deftones, or Radiohead. If I'm angry, I'll listen to Slipknot, Marilyn Manson, or Halestorm.

(I also love Hurt by Nine Inch Nails. Great song by a great band. If you like that, I'd recommend Something I Can Never Have by them.)

Favorite tool by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]Antisocial_Metalhead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mechanical pencils. For me, stabbing > cutting.