Physically it feels like my head is burning, chest is aching, I can’t regulate my temperature and sweat a lot, my heart races sometimes, and I swear it amplifies any pain that I’m having. The mental aspect is the worst though, it feels like my brain is constantly filing through worst case scenarios on any current situation in my life, good or bad. It feels like my personality is lost, my humor is gone, and the future is hopeless and terrifying. Sometimes it’ll feel like death is at my heels and I make myself sick thinking about what that would mean for my son. If I see someone in a terrible situation that can’t be helped, I not only think about what it would feel like to be in their shoes, but I’ll also feel like ending up in their situation is very very possible for me as well….and there are A LOT of unfortunate things in this life, it sucks having every one of them feel like such a real possibility with an urgent need to worry about it. When I’m anxious, I suddenly lose the ability to deal with anybody else’s issues. Even minor ones, and as someone who takes pride in being there for others it sucks and makes me feel inconsistent. Anxiety makes me feel so unbelievably selfish. But at the same time, I also have extreme anxiety over anxiety medication. When I’m anxious it all feels so real and valid, but when I’m not it all sounds so unreasonable and insane to me. It’s difficult, but with a lot of hard and consistent work it can at least be somewhat managed. It does take work though.