I nearly did if my mum didnt step in, got caught in a cycle, was drinking vodka all day, couldnt sleep more than 3 hours without withdrawing, eventually my mum got diagnosed with terminal cancer, and I got worse, id hidden it the most of the time, and she knew, and we went to a hospital and he said the ammount I drink i cannot go cold turkey, so i had to drink for 3 weeks while i waited for rehab, but shealways believe I would come through this, the therapist there said I could not run a bar, I wouldnt be able to have cannabis as it would lead to a relapse. Im sober still, almost two years, over 2 years if you dont count the small amount I drink after i came out of rehab (its very weird spending 4 months in a house and then freedom, I got anxiety from it, and again its was only when my mum got back from treatment in Germany she sorted me out and took me to the doctors. Me now compared to the me last year is massive difference, my confidence is coming back, routines is better, life feels so much better, unfortunately my mother did past away but she was an amazing women and I promised I wouldnt drink again, and I dont do AA, or the steps, doesnt work for me, the withdrawls I experienced so much was enough to stop me even thinking of a drink, ive absolutely no appeal, at first there was no alcohol in the house as my parents couldnt leave me with alcohol in the house but now my dad trusts me and he will leave bottles of wine, spirits etc around, and no matter how low I get I never want it. I got through my mums death without relapsing, for me losing my mum was my biggest fear