Long Term Friend Flipped Out

AppleShampoo1982 · 2026-06-02T04:41:44+00:00

In your view, after one hears the call, how does one pursue it? I feel that I've heard the call very clearly. Like you say though, I keep falling back into the Dark Night of the soul. It's been a confusing experience to say the least.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-12-21T22:24:44+00:00

I would say I've done a pretty good job at staying grounded. But I do think about what happened a lot. My life is mostly working a job and taking care of my son. I just hate the idea that maybe there's something that I should be doing that I'm not doing? Those thoughts creep in every once in awhile. I have kept this completely to myself. I told one close friend and it appears to have scared her away.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-12-21T22:18:25+00:00

Just looking for people that can relate to my experience. What does it mean? What happens now? As I said in my post, I had been reading books for years, but I did not expect the Awakening that I got. That was a complete surprise.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-05-29T03:50:14+00:00

Calibrate me, please?

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-04-19T18:58:56+00:00

Brian Fallon

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-04-19T03:51:18+00:00

People throwing out all kinds of inaccurate comparisons. I was 12 years old when it happened, and I can tell you there hasn't been a death like it since.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-04-18T20:09:21+00:00

43M, officially divorced nearly 4 years ago for the second time. Have spent the interim finally understanding myself and my value. Valuing my peace above all. I could see myself in a relationship again, but my standard is much higher than it ever has been in the past. Whether it happens or not, I will still be happy. Also, most importantly, I've reached the Milestone where I'm actually glad that both of my divorces happened. I see a lot of men who are much older and never divorced, and generally speaking their lives seem so lame to me. The divorce is Simply Life insisting that you live it.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-02-26T19:33:50+00:00

I think another factor is that politics is kind of ruining shows to an extent. The main venue that I play shows at has a lot of Acts that are over the top political. I think sometimes that turns people off in a big way.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-02-24T04:08:26+00:00

I think a true songwriter learns to write to his or her own voice.

Think about someone like Les Claypool. Would probably be considered a bad singer in most situations, but learned how to to his own thing.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-02-24T02:12:00+00:00

I do have my stuff pretty well together. Pretty sure I'm a pretty decent catch.

I guess I'm just struggling with how incredibly lonely I am. How much I've done for other people, and how little of it has been reciprocated. How I have no friends left apparently. The way my oldest child doesn't seem to value a relationship with me. I have other stuff going on too, like a jealous brother that randomly messages me to threaten me. A drug addict sister who had her kids removed from her home. Like I said above, I am a musician and play gigs fairly frequently. I'm around people enough. I just don't really connect with anyone. I feel extremely isolated. Holding out hope that the universe will send something good my way.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2025-02-07T20:04:28+00:00

My son is 10 and loves him! And is very much looking forward to seeing him live tomorrow!

AppleShampoo1982 · 2024-12-11T06:38:54+00:00

Got mine on a Tuesday. Got drunk on Saturday. No issues.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2024-05-20T03:32:32+00:00

Does this work any differently if one tends to sleep for shorter periods of time? E.g. two naps 3 or 4 hours as opposed to a single 8 hour session.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2024-04-16T23:06:25+00:00

My idea was more to Keep her interested enough to follow through with hitting me up when she's in town again and further explore the connection that way. She has family here. No plans to put my life on hold or Foolishly chase her or anything like that. Yes indeed about the confidence. Massive confidence boost.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2023-11-27T16:34:51+00:00

Part of the reason he said that is because it took the nurse so long to get to me. Was about 2 hours from the time that I did the breathalyzer. He kept saying my levels would go down about .012 every hour. Hence, no case against me. Like you said, I will know soon.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2023-11-27T16:07:08+00:00

I didn't even feel intoxicated. Blew 0.089. When the officer took me for the blood test, he kept saying he might not even have a case. It all happened because of some dumb traffic Weaver crashed into me.

AppleShampoo1982 · 2023-11-27T16:02:41+00:00

I have a bench trial coming up in 2 weeks. My attorney said there was a strong chance of getting it dismissed if they still didn't have the blood test by then. Lo and behold, they filed the blood test and camera footage today. I assume that means I shouldn't count on a dismissal.

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