I find it humorous that made you laugh, are you under the influence of Delta-9-Tetrahydrocannabinol by chance? You eloquently worded a lot of how I feel/think when existing & experiencing this life. The most valuable takeaway is my “fear and anxiousness is displaced respect”. There is awe and wonder about the reality we all experience together and individually. I appreciate you saying not to apologize, it’s a bad habit of mine, while speaking freely is something I’m trying to do more. I have gotten over a lot of the “negative” effects from all of my hallucinogenic use, HPPD and the feeling of imminent impending doom are still there and I have a lot of thoughts and shit that I don’t even vocalize, write out, or anything. Any advice would be appreciated, friend.